I'm tired. I'm energy-less. All because I couldn't get back to sleep this morning after saying bye to hubby. That was around 9. I HAVE BEEN UP SINCE NINE?? WHAT IS THIS!??!?!
I laid in bed til 10 30 or so, then I played on the computer til I decided I should eat something (because hunger just hasn't existed lately) and discovered the last of the milk carton's milk has gone bad. When I took a bite. Uuuuugh. So I tossed it and tried again with the milk I picked up last night. It was okay.
Then I read some more, and finally felt like I was waking up until I got up. Then I realized how tired and sleepy I am. It's not like I had any grand plans or anything, but I did want to finish applying for scholarships, make dinner, read a book perhaps, and prepare for massage school tonight.
Last night we worked on backs! They ran us through the process of how to do it, then we faced the real challenge: Dressing and undressing under the blankets. It's ridiculously difficult. Especially putting on your bra under the sheets. It just doesn't work well on a massage table.
I was the receiver first, and it didn't feel like a professional massage at all. I kept struggling to give good feedback that she could use, but I was rather limited, (half)naked on a table. Then I was the giver, and she gave pretty good feedback, though she kept saying 'more pressure'. =.=
Maya is getting more bold about wanting to be petted and cuddled. When her stomach hurts she comes to me to rub it for her. ...When she's bored she comes to me. When she's hungry, she comes to me. When she sees me, she comes to me. When I use the restroom, she tries to get in, and if she can't, she waits outside the door for me. When I eat, she watches me. When I sleep, she sleeps near me. Or else hops up and meows to see if I'm getting up... until I get up. I would set up play-dates for her if I thought she might not tear any other animal a new tail. So scary. I have a Stalker!Cat.
Waaaah! They really used a lot of the material of Sailor Moon! I'm impressed!
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Massage School: SO INTERESTING!!
They have worked the logistics out over a 20 year period. The classes are: 1 hour lecture on homework material, including 'fill-in-the-blanks' study sheets passed out on the first day, followed by 3 hours of practical 'learning by doing' with a fifteen minute break every hour, or whenever the students call for one.
The material is so interesting. The teachers are incredibly competent. And the location is so convenient! I'm loving it!
My only problem: The key to succeeding is practice. Constantly. Hubby has his own homework to do. I can't make him lay on a table for an hour while I practice on him over and over! >.< I think there's an easy enough solution: Find a classmate with time on their hands, and practice on each other. Troublesome, but effective. I'll worry about it a bit more when I have more to practice than simply draping the sheet over a body.
I was a little worried about my body and this school. I had good reason. My leg won't do the squats and lunges we're supposed to do for very long. I can do it at first, but it soon gets too painful. This is my reason (excuse) for not going jogging tonight. Technically I have every reason to, and none not to, but I can't get myself out the door. Go figure.
My classmates are all very interesting, and very sincere (or else searching for their own place to belong). We went around the circle tonight and shared our reasons for coming to this massage school, and a little about our lives. It was very interesting and helps you remember each person, even if the name escapes you.
My cat is apparently desperate for attention. Yesterday I picked her up with the intention of holding her too close, rubbing her too energetically, and scratching her too hard. I amuse myself by torturing her sometimes. It backfired. She leaned in, laid down on me, and soaked it all up. This means I need to give her some bonafide kitty-loving sessions. I haven't done it in a while, she probably needs grooming, and it'll be a good de-stressor. Maybe I can even practice some massage methods on her.
Japanese TV in one hour. Pretty funny and interesting, but long. Take breaks. :P
http://hannahbrencher.com/2013/04/04/25-things-every-woman-needs-to-know/
The material is so interesting. The teachers are incredibly competent. And the location is so convenient! I'm loving it!
My only problem: The key to succeeding is practice. Constantly. Hubby has his own homework to do. I can't make him lay on a table for an hour while I practice on him over and over! >.< I think there's an easy enough solution: Find a classmate with time on their hands, and practice on each other. Troublesome, but effective. I'll worry about it a bit more when I have more to practice than simply draping the sheet over a body.
I was a little worried about my body and this school. I had good reason. My leg won't do the squats and lunges we're supposed to do for very long. I can do it at first, but it soon gets too painful. This is my reason (excuse) for not going jogging tonight. Technically I have every reason to, and none not to, but I can't get myself out the door. Go figure.
My classmates are all very interesting, and very sincere (or else searching for their own place to belong). We went around the circle tonight and shared our reasons for coming to this massage school, and a little about our lives. It was very interesting and helps you remember each person, even if the name escapes you.
My cat is apparently desperate for attention. Yesterday I picked her up with the intention of holding her too close, rubbing her too energetically, and scratching her too hard. I amuse myself by torturing her sometimes. It backfired. She leaned in, laid down on me, and soaked it all up. This means I need to give her some bonafide kitty-loving sessions. I haven't done it in a while, she probably needs grooming, and it'll be a good de-stressor. Maybe I can even practice some massage methods on her.
Japanese TV in one hour. Pretty funny and interesting, but long. Take breaks. :P
http://hannahbrencher.com/2013/04/04/25-things-every-woman-needs-to-know/
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Can I throw the cat out into the rain? Please?
She keeps meowing from like 7:30 in the morning until I actually get up (12-1 p.m.). It is not a pleasant experience, especially when I have some awesome mystery/adventure dreams like I've been having lately. And then there's the fact that I'm generally cold in the morning, so I don't ever want to get out from under the covers. And she doesn't need food, water, or litter! That's the most frustrating thing!
Today, except for that, I was actually in a pretty good mood. I wanted to look cute for when hubby came home, so I put on a short skirt (that I would almost never wear outside), a black tank top, and got to preparing dinner. Then when he put the key in the lock, I hopped up, ready to greet him at the door. When he walked in though, I realized he was on the phone (Again), so I just pouted and didn't hug or cuddle like I had planned. I don't like competing with phones. It isn't fair to either of us. So he hung up and then I huggled him. He seemed very amused by my pouting. Poopyhead....
Then we had a pot roast for dinner, with some parmesan cheese garlic toast (that was really really salty) while Pineapples told us the good news! And then we watched Whose Line, which we haven't actually seen in weeks. For some reason we just started watching other stuff and didn't remember it.
After dinner we went to our separate interests (Read: Runa demanded manga time, and hubby found something else to do) until I realized how much I wanted cheesecake. When I mentioned it to Hubby, he suggested Cheesecake Factory. I had been ready for some Walmart Cheesecake, but I will never balk at getting better food, so off to the Factory we went! I picked out the Oreo Extreme Cheesecake, and Hubby got the Chocolate Mousse one. Then we watched an episode of cupcake wars while we ate half of our cheesecakes (while sharing with each other). I didn't really like the top half of mine, and actually ended up offering it to hubby because I just couldn't get excited over it and felt it was wasteful to eat something I didn't really want. Hubby's mousse was really good, but the bottom chocolate half and top frosting on my own tasted better, so even though he preferred mine as well, we didn't switch. I was stingy.
Lol. Hubby was hugging and cuddling me at the restaurant, saying how much he spoils me. I just happily agreed, saying that he makes me happy. Then he wondered how happy I would be when he spoils our kids. I thought about it, and finally answered simply enough: I'll counterbalance his spoiling. No problem. We're opposites. We rock that way.
I'll end with a funny video. There's no subs, but essentially it's a show and the skit is: Grandma and Grandpa are stuck in a burning house where the 'firemen' can only reach them by soap stairs. Once you get wet, (as you'll see) the options for getting to the top greatly decrease. It's pretty good.
Today, except for that, I was actually in a pretty good mood. I wanted to look cute for when hubby came home, so I put on a short skirt (that I would almost never wear outside), a black tank top, and got to preparing dinner. Then when he put the key in the lock, I hopped up, ready to greet him at the door. When he walked in though, I realized he was on the phone (Again), so I just pouted and didn't hug or cuddle like I had planned. I don't like competing with phones. It isn't fair to either of us. So he hung up and then I huggled him. He seemed very amused by my pouting. Poopyhead....
Then we had a pot roast for dinner, with some parmesan cheese garlic toast (that was really really salty) while Pineapples told us the good news! And then we watched Whose Line, which we haven't actually seen in weeks. For some reason we just started watching other stuff and didn't remember it.
After dinner we went to our separate interests (Read: Runa demanded manga time, and hubby found something else to do) until I realized how much I wanted cheesecake. When I mentioned it to Hubby, he suggested Cheesecake Factory. I had been ready for some Walmart Cheesecake, but I will never balk at getting better food, so off to the Factory we went! I picked out the Oreo Extreme Cheesecake, and Hubby got the Chocolate Mousse one. Then we watched an episode of cupcake wars while we ate half of our cheesecakes (while sharing with each other). I didn't really like the top half of mine, and actually ended up offering it to hubby because I just couldn't get excited over it and felt it was wasteful to eat something I didn't really want. Hubby's mousse was really good, but the bottom chocolate half and top frosting on my own tasted better, so even though he preferred mine as well, we didn't switch. I was stingy.
Lol. Hubby was hugging and cuddling me at the restaurant, saying how much he spoils me. I just happily agreed, saying that he makes me happy. Then he wondered how happy I would be when he spoils our kids. I thought about it, and finally answered simply enough: I'll counterbalance his spoiling. No problem. We're opposites. We rock that way.
I'll end with a funny video. There's no subs, but essentially it's a show and the skit is: Grandma and Grandpa are stuck in a burning house where the 'firemen' can only reach them by soap stairs. Once you get wet, (as you'll see) the options for getting to the top greatly decrease. It's pretty good.
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Big Decisions!
Yesterday I picked up my massage table and my books for classes next week. I'm really excited, but I'm also nervous. I always get nervous, but it's still troubling. I want to do well, make friends, and learn a lot. But I don't know how well I'll do, since I've only ever been home-trained.
I also talked to hubby yesterday about something important that I've been putting off. I put it off because there's still plenty of time, but my niece is going up for adoption in February if my sister doesn't get her act together. I can't fully imagine my sister getting her act together, but I hope she does, because otherwise my mom will be making a 'bid' for Mimi. She's not sure she'll get her though, so I also want to make a 'bid' for her. She's an older child, so if she' isn't adopted by one of us, she will likely go to an orphanage. An older child in an orphanage is not likely get adopted, or even to have much success, and we don't want to be separated from her for the next seven years.
The reason I don't think my mom will get her is this: She just adopted Chay (after years of threatening to). Next month (November) Cin's baby boy, Max, will be up for adoption if she isn't doing well enough to take him back (and I don't think she'll ever be ready). Mom is going to make a strong bid for him, because as a little six month old half white/black baby boy, he is very likely to be adopted if he goes to an orphanage and we don't want that to happen (but really, my only real reason against it (since I've never met the babe) is because I don't think my sister would ever recover from losing her SECOND little boy. She's still stuck on her first that she gave up willingly. They took him from her without any warning, before they ever left the hospital. She will never recover from losing him, especially since her tubes are tied now.). That was a long (). Sorry. So if Mom gets him, which is totally possible, she'll have adopted two of her daughters' boys within six months. And then three months later, she'll be making another bid for one of her daughters' girls? I just don't think the courts are going to keep deciding in her favor, especially with the drama about Mimi and Chay and their difficulty living together.
So last night I talked to hubby about our taking Mimi on. She'll be eleven in December, and going to a therapist really seems to have had a good effect on her (though I haven't met her in over a year). She loves singing and dancing, and there's a bus that picks up elementary students in front of the office and drops them off (I just checked a few minutes ago) so we wont have to take her to school ourselves. There's the additional money for food, and the additional person on the water bill. The occasional new clothes (Goodwill is our friend), and maybe (but I doubt it) some school supplies (we have tons). We already have an extra room, with an extra bed, and a dresser drawers. The most difficulty I see is actually physically getting her here. She's halfway across the states, but a plane ticket for her is possible. The airfare for one adult and one child from there to here at the end of Feb is about 200 dollars total, so that isn't too bad either. The problem is getting someone to escort her here. I may have to go myself to get her. I just don't know.
I need to find a lawyer to talk to about the procedures for putting in a bid, how much that may cost, if they need to do a home study of our place, and how to get all that paperwork to the court in NC where they'll be conducting this.
I also want to talk to my mom and see if she can't persuade the court to delay Mimi's adoption until the end of the school year so she won't be switching school so much (and so hubby and I will be out of school and able to be there ourselves). If they will do that, I am MUCH more confident that we'll be able to do something to get her ourselves. Hopefully hubby will start looking and applying to good locations in December or January for his own line of work, saying he'll be able to start at the end of May after he graduates. I'll be finished with massage school at the end of April, which will give us time to pick out our new location (or decide to stay here), select an apartment, and give me a little time to find a job myself in the same area. Then we will both have potentially stable jobs, in a new area, during the summer so she can adjust to a new location (and maybe make some friends, but also giving us time to get to know her and her needs/habits/requirements), we can get paperwork filled out for her to start at a new school, and we'll all get a new start as a family.
Another plus point I mentioned to hubby is, in two years we'll be looking to have our own baby. Mimi is familiar with little ones, and she likes them. She'll be very helpful to have around when hubby is panicking or working, while I'm cleaning or cooking, etc. She's half-grown! Sure she's gonna want all this technology that she's used to, but she also respects us, so if we don't give in to her demands for them (and I'm not sure she would really demand them, since she also likes books like me) and maintain our stance, we'll all be able to adjust. Hubby suggested we could get her her own little TV for Christmas or something, and I know she has her own game systems. Just because we don't want a TV doesn't mean she has to do without one. I'm not sure of the price difference, but I would rather get her a simple little computer for herself, and maybe resume our Netflix account so she'll have Hulu and Netflix for entertainment, and not tons of mind-numbing shows that she'll just leave on for hours. Because that adds up on the electricity bill, and I also don't really like that high-pitched screetch that TVs make when they're on. With a computer we can enforce a time-limit better than a TV (maybe by turning it off, or having it password protected and only us knowing the password, so when it's time to get off, she no longer has access to it).
Well, anyway, I'm getting really ahead of myself. These are just things I've considered and some things I've discussed with Hubby. He's really not keen on sharing me, but he'll have to do it sometime, and I think it'll be a little better on him to start with a kid that can at least be logical. Babies aren't logical. You can't reason with them. You can only cave into the demands and beg for clemency before you lose your mind.
I'm also considering going to the Goodwill Community Foundation near our home that helps you find jobs. Well, I'm more than considering it. I'm pretty determined to look into it and see what they can do for me. My job requirements and my experience are so varied, that it makes even looking for a job difficult. I'm also still waiting to hear back from Apple, but I think it means they've been trying other people and still think I'm possible, just not their first choice. They're probably seeing if their first choices work out, and just keeping me on the line. Which is sad, but kinda always my experience when applying to places.
I will also get in contact with my old boss MM, and see if he's willing to help me out with interview tips (since he interviews so many people) and do some mock interviews with me when he has some time. And I'll contact R and see if she'll do the same, and maybe have some advice on interview clothing, and what to wear to what type of job interview. They're both friends, so I'm very hopeful that they will be willing to help. It's just asking for assistance that I have so much trouble with. But I will try. I want to improve and make good impressions so I can get good jobs and have a good time with a company of my choice.
Oops. This got a lot longer than I meant for it to, but it's thoughts that have been in my head for the last few days. Perhaps that's why I've had so much trouble sleeping.
I haven't even told you about the poopy-incident with the toilet flooding our apartment twice when we hadn't even used the restroom! ....And you know what? I don't think I'm going to. Suffice to say, I cleaned the damned floors twice, we're considering throwing out our rugs, and the apartment still smells funny. It's good that it's cooling down here. Today's high is 84, so I've left the windows open to let some fresh air get in.
I'll stop now. Really. Just one last thing. I actually had a bit of trouble understanding the announcer guy, but I understood the people that got tricked, so it was still funny. Watch it:
I also talked to hubby yesterday about something important that I've been putting off. I put it off because there's still plenty of time, but my niece is going up for adoption in February if my sister doesn't get her act together. I can't fully imagine my sister getting her act together, but I hope she does, because otherwise my mom will be making a 'bid' for Mimi. She's not sure she'll get her though, so I also want to make a 'bid' for her. She's an older child, so if she' isn't adopted by one of us, she will likely go to an orphanage. An older child in an orphanage is not likely get adopted, or even to have much success, and we don't want to be separated from her for the next seven years.
The reason I don't think my mom will get her is this: She just adopted Chay (after years of threatening to). Next month (November) Cin's baby boy, Max, will be up for adoption if she isn't doing well enough to take him back (and I don't think she'll ever be ready). Mom is going to make a strong bid for him, because as a little six month old half white/black baby boy, he is very likely to be adopted if he goes to an orphanage and we don't want that to happen (but really, my only real reason against it (since I've never met the babe) is because I don't think my sister would ever recover from losing her SECOND little boy. She's still stuck on her first that she gave up willingly. They took him from her without any warning, before they ever left the hospital. She will never recover from losing him, especially since her tubes are tied now.). That was a long (). Sorry. So if Mom gets him, which is totally possible, she'll have adopted two of her daughters' boys within six months. And then three months later, she'll be making another bid for one of her daughters' girls? I just don't think the courts are going to keep deciding in her favor, especially with the drama about Mimi and Chay and their difficulty living together.
So last night I talked to hubby about our taking Mimi on. She'll be eleven in December, and going to a therapist really seems to have had a good effect on her (though I haven't met her in over a year). She loves singing and dancing, and there's a bus that picks up elementary students in front of the office and drops them off (I just checked a few minutes ago) so we wont have to take her to school ourselves. There's the additional money for food, and the additional person on the water bill. The occasional new clothes (Goodwill is our friend), and maybe (but I doubt it) some school supplies (we have tons). We already have an extra room, with an extra bed, and a dresser drawers. The most difficulty I see is actually physically getting her here. She's halfway across the states, but a plane ticket for her is possible. The airfare for one adult and one child from there to here at the end of Feb is about 200 dollars total, so that isn't too bad either. The problem is getting someone to escort her here. I may have to go myself to get her. I just don't know.
I need to find a lawyer to talk to about the procedures for putting in a bid, how much that may cost, if they need to do a home study of our place, and how to get all that paperwork to the court in NC where they'll be conducting this.
I also want to talk to my mom and see if she can't persuade the court to delay Mimi's adoption until the end of the school year so she won't be switching school so much (and so hubby and I will be out of school and able to be there ourselves). If they will do that, I am MUCH more confident that we'll be able to do something to get her ourselves. Hopefully hubby will start looking and applying to good locations in December or January for his own line of work, saying he'll be able to start at the end of May after he graduates. I'll be finished with massage school at the end of April, which will give us time to pick out our new location (or decide to stay here), select an apartment, and give me a little time to find a job myself in the same area. Then we will both have potentially stable jobs, in a new area, during the summer so she can adjust to a new location (and maybe make some friends, but also giving us time to get to know her and her needs/habits/requirements), we can get paperwork filled out for her to start at a new school, and we'll all get a new start as a family.
Another plus point I mentioned to hubby is, in two years we'll be looking to have our own baby. Mimi is familiar with little ones, and she likes them. She'll be very helpful to have around when hubby is panicking or working, while I'm cleaning or cooking, etc. She's half-grown! Sure she's gonna want all this technology that she's used to, but she also respects us, so if we don't give in to her demands for them (and I'm not sure she would really demand them, since she also likes books like me) and maintain our stance, we'll all be able to adjust. Hubby suggested we could get her her own little TV for Christmas or something, and I know she has her own game systems. Just because we don't want a TV doesn't mean she has to do without one. I'm not sure of the price difference, but I would rather get her a simple little computer for herself, and maybe resume our Netflix account so she'll have Hulu and Netflix for entertainment, and not tons of mind-numbing shows that she'll just leave on for hours. Because that adds up on the electricity bill, and I also don't really like that high-pitched screetch that TVs make when they're on. With a computer we can enforce a time-limit better than a TV (maybe by turning it off, or having it password protected and only us knowing the password, so when it's time to get off, she no longer has access to it).
Well, anyway, I'm getting really ahead of myself. These are just things I've considered and some things I've discussed with Hubby. He's really not keen on sharing me, but he'll have to do it sometime, and I think it'll be a little better on him to start with a kid that can at least be logical. Babies aren't logical. You can't reason with them. You can only cave into the demands and beg for clemency before you lose your mind.
I'm also considering going to the Goodwill Community Foundation near our home that helps you find jobs. Well, I'm more than considering it. I'm pretty determined to look into it and see what they can do for me. My job requirements and my experience are so varied, that it makes even looking for a job difficult. I'm also still waiting to hear back from Apple, but I think it means they've been trying other people and still think I'm possible, just not their first choice. They're probably seeing if their first choices work out, and just keeping me on the line. Which is sad, but kinda always my experience when applying to places.
I will also get in contact with my old boss MM, and see if he's willing to help me out with interview tips (since he interviews so many people) and do some mock interviews with me when he has some time. And I'll contact R and see if she'll do the same, and maybe have some advice on interview clothing, and what to wear to what type of job interview. They're both friends, so I'm very hopeful that they will be willing to help. It's just asking for assistance that I have so much trouble with. But I will try. I want to improve and make good impressions so I can get good jobs and have a good time with a company of my choice.
Oops. This got a lot longer than I meant for it to, but it's thoughts that have been in my head for the last few days. Perhaps that's why I've had so much trouble sleeping.
I haven't even told you about the poopy-incident with the toilet flooding our apartment twice when we hadn't even used the restroom! ....And you know what? I don't think I'm going to. Suffice to say, I cleaned the damned floors twice, we're considering throwing out our rugs, and the apartment still smells funny. It's good that it's cooling down here. Today's high is 84, so I've left the windows open to let some fresh air get in.
I'll stop now. Really. Just one last thing. I actually had a bit of trouble understanding the announcer guy, but I understood the people that got tricked, so it was still funny. Watch it:
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Well. Most of MY drafts end in the middle of a sentence....
I'm not sure how all of you did yours, but I used a word document and then deleted it all. I only had seven, but I was still surprised at the contents sometimes. So I joined the bandwagon. :)
3/15/2009
Urgh, I'm tired, but I have to do this homework....
I
almost regret going to see Milk. Actually, I'm not particularly happy I saw it.
I was curious about it, but by no means did it fulfill me in any particular
way. His fight is still ongoing: there is still prejudice, and there seems to
be no end to dissatisfied people who feel they are unfairly treated, but do not
wish to work hard to be acknowledged. That is not to say that all who complain
are lazy, or that those that complain are
5/15/2009
I broke my diet TOO much.....ugh
So now I'm feeling sick. Bleh.
Rozy: Keep trying to keep to your goal!
Once you slip up, it's hard to get back on track! =_= My diet is proving
that.... I hope you don't
3/01/30
Okay.....and.....?
I'm not really awake right now. You see, I'm pretending. I have to
be 'awake' in order to be at work, but really, I'm just sleeping while waking.
Or having a waking-sleep. Or a sleep-wake. *nods* Yup yup. And now I have to be
awake until .....9 or so pm?
I haven't done any homework for today, and
I have two assignments for my psych class due. I really wanna drop that class,
but the only real assignment I have left in there is an analytic paper. And
those really aren't difficult if you know what you're focusing on.
My cold sore is retreating!
WAhahahaha....ow...It's begun to hurt. =.=
I was looking at BF's blog posts a year
ago. I kinda wanna see mine from a year ago now....Hm. BBL.
This is interesting. Last year, I took a
Passionate Love Scale test, and for kicks, I redid it. My score was lower now,
but I still scored in the Passionate Love range. ^_^ Heh.
Argh. I referenced a story on my blog a
year ago, and suddenly had to backtrack. I'd been trying to figure out why bf
said that I was going through a tough time, but since his blog design is wacky
and unhelpful right now, I had to just scan through, and I got so distracted!
Darn it!
Anyway, about my weekend. Siblings Day was
pretty cool. Chay got really obnoxious when he was hungry, so we never even got
to finish making our quilt and had to leave, and it was 20 minutes before he
did anything but grunt. He really liked the lunch though. We ate at Fountain
Dining Hall. Then we went to the IRC office, where we used their restroom,
since I couldn't think of a way for us both to use the bathroom without leaving
him alone, which I REALLY didn't think was a good idea. Then we went to the
bookstore, where he wanted a Naruto novel. I think for his birthday I'll get
him the first volume and most recent volume of Naruto, as well as a postcard
booklet for him to keep postcards in. I'll send him postcards from Japan, so he
won't forget me. Then we went to a Bee-keeping class, where I fell asleep. The
brat tattled on me! They apparently did an experiment, where you had to look in
your partner's eyes, and he raises his hand and says "Teacher, I can't do
the experiment because my Aunt fell asleep!" I IMMEDIATELY wake up and say
"I'm not asleep!" which of course sends a round of laughter through
the class. Even the teacher looked amused. V_V So embarrassing. Then we started
the scavenger hunt. Chay wasn't all that interested until we started
vandalizing property. We were painting in the tunnel, and he ADORED
that.....Makes me a little worried, honestly. Then we went and did an obstacle
race with each other. He's adorable, even if he's rude and not very
conscientious. V_V I'm really bossy with him too, so I was a little embarrassed
in front of my IRC friends. I felt very motherly. *sigh* I should stop being so
self-conscious about it. Then we went to the library, where I treated him to
coffee and a cookie, while we waited for the Creamery to open. Turns out it
isn't open on those days, so we'd wasted our time. But Chay and I got to sit
there and talk for a while. Then he had to use the bathroom. It was all the
coffee and soda, I just know it. We then walked to Talley and waited for Nana
to pick us up. Then we went to Cook-Out and got food. Bf didn't want to join
us. *tear* jk. Then I forced her to fill out the FAFSA stuff. It ended up
making us both a little late, but I had awesome timing when I called K-chan to
see if she'd drive me, since I was so sleep-deprived. She was literally walking
out the door, so it was great timing. Except that I had to rush my mom and
nephew out of my room then, so we wouldn't be late. V_V I felt bad about that.
Then I went Contra Dancing. I always managed to have a partner when I danced,
but it was a close call once or twice. I don't really like asking the men to
dance, but I dislike sitting out a dance even more. It's so fun, though I've
noticed I laughed rather less than I did the first time I went. I like to think
I danced better though.
Interesting song that pandora just played
for me:
10/14/10
Miyazaki Mood (that’s all)
10/15/10
KomattaKoto
Which translates roughly to "Troublesome things".
*sigh* I have something to admit. I hate
to admit it, and I hate to think of anyone knowing, but .....*dundundun* I'm
out of money. I can say I'm 'running low' but that translates to "I've
been eating 1 dollar's worth of food each day for lunch in order to still have
something to buy food with the next day. I have less than a hundred yen to my
name that belongs to me here. I had to borrow money from Ikuchin just to buy a
ticket for the train ride home.
See, I thought I would be paid tonight but
I wasn't. So I am in some real trouble. I must pay Ikuchin back. And then
there's the bank's fee which I was never aware of until I received an email
about it when I got here, and a few other 'bills' waiting to be paid. Beyond
that, I'm on my own for lunch every day, so it's really troublesome. I'm
attempting to find scholarships, grants, jobs, or anything I can do to bring in
the money, but I'm not certain what is available. If you know of anything I can
do, or where I could go, I'd be extremely happy to hear it. My parents aren't
an option.
Beyond that, I'm super tired, and on the
verge of making myself sick from the worry. There was this sick moment when I
realized tonight that I wasn't being paid tonight, and that I didn't even have
the 210 yen necessary to buy a ticket home. (BTW, 1 yen roughly translates to 1
cent) My stomach kind of curdled and I felt like I might throw up if I opened
my mouth too much. I refuse to cry, because that won't help anything. Instead,
I'm going to look at my options, and figure out what I can do. Any suggestions
are appreciated.
*sigh* My class really isn't hard at
all....it's just alot of work....I get about 3-6 pages of homework a day. I can
do all of that homework within 45-60 minutes, depending on the content. I would
say within half an hour, but kanji is infinitely more difficult, so I can't
make that claim. I think I'm gonna take a shower and try to relax. Stress makes
me so ill, and I really can't afford to be sick right now either. I'm rather
mortified that people are going to know I'm broke, so please don't rub it in if
you can help it. When I have to admit it to my mom, I can already hear the
"See? What was that 'I can make it on my own' talk about? Come home!
That's the only money I'll give you!" or something of that nature. How
depressing. There's the slight chance she'd react with "My poor baby.
We'll send you money, but make a budget, and we'll work something out when you
come home next year" but honestly? That's like a 3% chance. So depressing.
AUGH! No more depression! I really wanna talk to bf though!!! He's never online
when I'm bursting to consult him....whether I'm in America or Japan. ARGH!
That's depressing too! That's it! Shower time! Then I'll blog about my week in
more political ways on the other blog. :P
5/05/11
I realized how little I post on here lately
I also just realized that on Sunday, not only do I get a movie day
with my lust crush, but he will be helping me practice my self defense which
means lots of physical contact....wow. I'm suddenly seriously looking forward
to the weekend. And I'm dreading it now for the exact same reason.....That
sucks.
So today I took a day off. :) Or so I say.
What I actually did was:
-Wake up around 10.
-Eat a piece of toast,
-Hang up Ikuchin's laundry and start my
own (starting with my bed sheets)
-Take a shower
-Hang some laundry up
-Eat some orange slices and something else
-Get dressed, put make up on
-Try out my new socks and my new heels by
going out
-Went to the rental store and picked out 5
movies (Mamma Mia, Mr. and Mrs. Smith, Juno, My neighbor Totoro, and Public
Enemy)
3/26/12
Engagement
We
didn't do this in order, but this is how it went down:
Monday, September 30, 2013
Paying Tuition
So I drove over to the school on Friday to pay my tuition for massage school, but found that I had missed the people who could accept my payment by twenty minutes! It annoyed me, honestly. I had asked hubby to wake me up that morning, but he didn't, so I woke at noon (as usual). I had only been told I needed to be there by 2 p.m., so to find that I couldn't do it disappointed me. I want it over with, so that I can say 'I WILL be enrolled'. So today I tried to get up early again and failed. Woke up around 1:30. :/ So I sent off an email explaining what I wanted, and could I please just call and pay that way, but she hasn't gotten back to me. So I'm still waiting to pay. I have until the end of the business day of the first of October to do it, I believe. So I'll just keep trying.
On to my sleeping problems: I'm seriously straining my leg every day. I'm pushing it past its limits, and wearing myself out. I think this accounts for a large portion of my heavy sleeping. For nearly the last week (except for two days when I woke up around seven a.m.) I've been sleeping anywhere from twelve to fourteen hours a night. It's honestly frustrating. I want to get up but I'm so heavily tired that I just fall back asleep. Hopefully tomorrow Hubby can get me up and I can drive over and pay for my tuition. He tried to get me up this morning, but I just turned over and went back to sleep.
We're gonna be meatless for the next few days! Mainly because we always shop together, and Hubby is overloaded with work until Thursday. So I'll make meals with what we have lying in the freezer/cabinets until then. It'll be interesting! I'm kinda excited.
Today hubby had a bad day. So instead of the plain salad and rolls I was gonna make for dinner, I also made steak (that had been in the freezer) and fudgy brownies. The rolls were amazing: covered and soaked in butter, garlic salt, and parmesan cheese. The salad included tomatoes, lettuce, shredded cheese, boiled snow peas, boiled spinach, lemon juice, and sea salt. It sounds a little odd, but it's actually pretty good. I also made coleslaw and cucumber salad the other day, but Hubby doesn't like those. We have a lot of leftovers/bentos made up for him to take to work, so at least I don't have to worry about that.
I don't know if I mentioned this before, but Hubby and I are jogging together now. It's kind of a waste for him to go though, since he doesn't even break a sweat.... Whereas I come home with my lungs on fire and my legs burning. I know I'm taking necessary baby steps. To show how baby they are: First time was 3 minutes, second was 5, third was 6, and fourth was 9. Then I integrated sprints on my fifth trip (jog a stretch, sprint one, jog one, etc.) and only lasted 6 minutes. Next time (in a little while) I'll start with walking fast, then jogging and sprinting, to try and get my time up and let my legs go through various ranges. When I was jogging last time, I thought about how I'm even able to jog. I haven't been able to run for over three months. The fact that I can jog and run without fear of falling over because my knee gave out is AMAZING. My first few times, I was actually cautious, halfway expecting it to give out on me. Now I have to adjust my legs to their new status. What I mean is, my right leg feels comfortable jogging and running. It's familiar. But my left.... is not. It jolts and jars and feels subtly wrong. So I'm trying out my paces, trying to find the comfortable fit I know is there somewhere. And in the course of that, get my reserves back up. Cause only lasting 3 minutes is.... just humiliating.
I was going through Christmas gifts, organizing them, considering packaging, and basically taking inventory. And I realized. I have nearly nothing for my oldest nephew. I'm seriously considering just getting him a Gift Card for his Game Shop place. But that seems so heartless, so I'm wavering between that and picking out a video game for him. I don't know. I do know that I made him some Venom hand warmers. ^.^ They look pretty good, even though they're small. They also work REALLY well. If anyone wants anything, let us know. If it's not an overly difficult/expensive gift, we'll do our best. OR if you have ideas for a 13 year old nephew/little bro, lay 'em on me. ;)
hahahaha. This is funny:
http://funnymama.com/post/212306
On to my sleeping problems: I'm seriously straining my leg every day. I'm pushing it past its limits, and wearing myself out. I think this accounts for a large portion of my heavy sleeping. For nearly the last week (except for two days when I woke up around seven a.m.) I've been sleeping anywhere from twelve to fourteen hours a night. It's honestly frustrating. I want to get up but I'm so heavily tired that I just fall back asleep. Hopefully tomorrow Hubby can get me up and I can drive over and pay for my tuition. He tried to get me up this morning, but I just turned over and went back to sleep.
We're gonna be meatless for the next few days! Mainly because we always shop together, and Hubby is overloaded with work until Thursday. So I'll make meals with what we have lying in the freezer/cabinets until then. It'll be interesting! I'm kinda excited.
Today hubby had a bad day. So instead of the plain salad and rolls I was gonna make for dinner, I also made steak (that had been in the freezer) and fudgy brownies. The rolls were amazing: covered and soaked in butter, garlic salt, and parmesan cheese. The salad included tomatoes, lettuce, shredded cheese, boiled snow peas, boiled spinach, lemon juice, and sea salt. It sounds a little odd, but it's actually pretty good. I also made coleslaw and cucumber salad the other day, but Hubby doesn't like those. We have a lot of leftovers/bentos made up for him to take to work, so at least I don't have to worry about that.
I don't know if I mentioned this before, but Hubby and I are jogging together now. It's kind of a waste for him to go though, since he doesn't even break a sweat.... Whereas I come home with my lungs on fire and my legs burning. I know I'm taking necessary baby steps. To show how baby they are: First time was 3 minutes, second was 5, third was 6, and fourth was 9. Then I integrated sprints on my fifth trip (jog a stretch, sprint one, jog one, etc.) and only lasted 6 minutes. Next time (in a little while) I'll start with walking fast, then jogging and sprinting, to try and get my time up and let my legs go through various ranges. When I was jogging last time, I thought about how I'm even able to jog. I haven't been able to run for over three months. The fact that I can jog and run without fear of falling over because my knee gave out is AMAZING. My first few times, I was actually cautious, halfway expecting it to give out on me. Now I have to adjust my legs to their new status. What I mean is, my right leg feels comfortable jogging and running. It's familiar. But my left.... is not. It jolts and jars and feels subtly wrong. So I'm trying out my paces, trying to find the comfortable fit I know is there somewhere. And in the course of that, get my reserves back up. Cause only lasting 3 minutes is.... just humiliating.
I was going through Christmas gifts, organizing them, considering packaging, and basically taking inventory. And I realized. I have nearly nothing for my oldest nephew. I'm seriously considering just getting him a Gift Card for his Game Shop place. But that seems so heartless, so I'm wavering between that and picking out a video game for him. I don't know. I do know that I made him some Venom hand warmers. ^.^ They look pretty good, even though they're small. They also work REALLY well. If anyone wants anything, let us know. If it's not an overly difficult/expensive gift, we'll do our best. OR if you have ideas for a 13 year old nephew/little bro, lay 'em on me. ;)
hahahaha. This is funny:
http://funnymama.com/post/212306
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
Help Meh, Peeps.
I am applying for a scholarship to make massage school $1,000.00 cheaper. So I wrote an essay (they don't have any particulars, so I just wrote a generic one until I get more details) and would like everyone's feedback on it. Here it is, in all it's 'written five minutes ago' glory:
Why I chose Massage
School
When I
was three, I walked into my mother’s room and found my older sisters both
holding one of my mother’s legs. I was confused, but I had seen it before, so I
just walked over and added my hands to one leg, and started squeezing. That was
the beginning of massage for me. Over the years I got a lot better, and could
sense where and how hard to apply the pressure. My increase in skill also meant
my mom started paying me to do it, and I could make 20 dollars a week working
on her back, her legs, her arms, and sometimes even her gluts. I wanted to be a
massage therapist, but when I consulted my mom, she worried me, telling me my
hands would be exhausted within five years, that I wouldn’t make enough money
to support myself doing it, and that I had a bright future ahead of me already
so I shouldn’t jeopardize it for a hobby. I gave in, but never got the urge to
massage out of my blood.
In
Japan, I massaged my upperclassmen and they taught me some neat massage tricks.
My host mom told me I should charge about 5 dollars for a massage at school and
I would make a killing, but it felt wrong to charge strangers for massages when
I didn’t have any kind of credentials. I pulled some muscles in my back while
doing Aikidou over there and a friend gave me a ‘sports massage’. It was the
first time I realized massage could actually do more damage than the injury
when done wrong. So I stuck to what I knew and kept my massages safe and free
of charge.
Since
then, I have graduated from college with a degree in Japanese Language and
Culture, gotten married and moved far away from family to be with my husband
while he gets his Masters in Chemical Engineering. I have found that while my
language skills have not found me any jobs, there are jobs everywhere for
massage therapists. I have learned that there are ways to circumvent wearing
your hands out. I have also found that I can’t imagine continuing to live
without massage. I have needed massage to counteract the effects of minimum
wage jobs. I have needed massage to comfort my body and decrease the tensions
caused by financial worries (and isn’t that ironic) and physical ailments. I
have even needed massage to help me deal with frustration and give my hand
something productive to do. So I have decided that if I can’t live without
massage, I may as well embrace it and become a massage therapist like I wanted
to be when I was 16 and wondering what to do with my life.
My mom may
continue to worry about the financial stability of a massage therapist, but my
husband understands how important it is to me, and agreed to my returning to
school. After all, he’s going to school full time and working three jobs
besides, just to support us. I am finding it difficult to work while I recover
from my ACL reconstruction surgery, but if I can decrease the costs in any way,
I will reach out and do my best. I want to make things easier for him and help
push the worry away, so I am applying for a scholarship to help keep school
from eating into our savings too much. If I’ve learned anything in my life, it’s
that if you don’t try, you won’t succeed. So I will try and excel at school,
and I will try and find a job that won’t interfere with schooling or take time
from my studies, but a scholarship would make it easier and give us some needed
breathing room. I hope you will consider me; thank you for your time.
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