Snoring

 I find it highly amusing that everyone (including me) in our household snores. I remember when I was a teenager, I read books where the protagonist would rather die than have a snoring husband. And yet I find my own husband's snores not only adorable, but comforting. They genuinely make me happy.

When he snores, I feel comforted, like he's right there with me. I know he's comfortable, and I find that satisfying. He also just generally makes me happy by existing. But listening to his snores isn't the chore I was led to believe when I read books as a teen. It isn't infuriating, it's just cute. My husband is always cute. It's really ridiculous how cute I find him every day, and I can't imagine him being any cuter, but he somehow surpasses my expectations every time. 

When the kitty snores, I also find it cute. It's a sign she's sleeping well, she's comfortable, and she feels safe. When she sleeps with her back to me, sometimes I poke her, just to see if I startle her. But usually she doesn't even twitch, let alone wake up. It makes me feel really trusted and happy. It's also generally shocking just how loud a small 12 pound cat can be when she snores. 

When Childling snores, it lets me know they're likely not having nightmares, and they're sleeping well. They don't sleep well lately, so the snores are reassuring. Childling is probably the quietest sleeper in the house, surprisingly. Whenever they wake up, I tend to wake up as well, even if we're rooms apart, so that's distressing. But beyond that, it's comfortable to hear them sleeping well. 

I wonder what this new baby will do. Will he snore? Will he just sleep silently for years until he develops a snore like I did? I think it's late to reassure you all, but he's fine. I was one of 5% of women who have a massive bleeding incident without a miscarriage, so I had to be careful for a week, but everything is looking good now. 

I'm 23 weeks pregnant, the baby is a boy, we do have the name picked out already, as well as the bassinet, a lot of clothes, and most of the essentials,. We're still conflicted on the infant car seat and stroller. Baby has all of his limbs, and all of his organs so far. We did a gender reveal party with my family, by putting blue icing in cupcakes and then letting everyone bite into them together. It was really fun.

The gender reveal party was also the only time we've really broken quarantine since March, because my own family is almost strictly quarantined as well. I think my mom is going crazy over the new baby though. She keeps asking what other clothes we want, and if we need anything. She's actually come up to visit for the first time in years! Multiple times! 

It's a strange timeline folks. I got knee surgery in February, and my scars are already faded and healed. Then, within two weeks of returning to work, I had to go into quarantine. Then after finding out I was pregnant, I arranged to return to work around week 14 of pregnancy, with the understanding that most morning sickness fades out by week 16, but mine did not. 

I actually have only just this week made it to nearly 2 weeks without ...an incident. That's what I'm going to call it. I've lost a lot of food options. And I've grown more familiar with throwing up than I have ever in my life wanted to. I've thrown up most medicine options, and I have bad effects with others (yay blood pressure drop?) so it hasn't been fun.

I tutor two little girls (ages 6 and 7) twice a week right now, and that's the only work I do. Hubby works all the time, and I'm pretty much just being an incubator, as cooking, standing, working, exercising, etc. all leave me sick, nauseas and upset. 

So yeah! Life is a little rough, but while I'm taking time off work, I'm actually running into having too much time on my hands, so I'm beginning to look into projects I need to complete. Some examples include my CEUs for my license, and cosplay projects, as well as breaking down the rooms one by one and reorganizing them. I've only got three rooms left, actually, and one of them is half done. 

I hope everyone is doing well during this stressful period. Did you realize we've run out of Hurricane names, and have resorted to the Greek Alphabet? We have two more months of Hurricane season to get through, but if we have 4 more hurricanes, it'll be the largest number of hurricanes in recorded history. 

That's not even getting into the social issues, the desperation to vote 45 out of office, the loss of a judge and the Republicans dirty tricks to try to be exempt from a rule they created themselves four years ago. I'm not a political blog, it's just my thoughts here, so I'm trying not to get into it. But this year has been impressive in sheer number of apocalyptic events. I am thoroughly impressed, and I'm not ashamed to admit it. 

Oh, and if you want to join my discord, so we can chat in real time, feel free to ask for the link. :) 

Til next time!