Happy Birthday Beloved BF!

^_^ Heheh. I already told him that several times though. Ne, ne. I'll tell you guys a story.

Back when I was a child, I think it was my third or fourth birthday. Everyone at school had been great. They were all so nice. I came home, and everyone was being super nice, and they had presents for me, and they'd prepared a party for me and everything. So do you know what I did? I went into the bathroom and cried my eyes out. I was utterly inconsolable and I had no reason at all to be so upset and sad. Everyone was very confused and didn't know what to do. They weren't tears of joy, though they should have been. I was truly sad. And I had no reason to be. ^////^ In fact, I personally believe it was because I had been so very happy that I had to feel the opposite feelings in order to balance myself. This type of event happens to me often. If things are going too well, I know something bad is going to happen to balance it out. If things are going really badly, I know something good is going to happen where I least expect it. It's the concept of Yin-Yang. And I have every reason to believe in it and very little reason to doubt it. I'm not saying I buy into Daoism or anything, but it's the religion (really it's more of a way of life, but who's discriminating?) I feel makes the most sense. ^///^ There's also no discrimination or determining what everyone is allowed to do and such. It's more like "Keep things in moderation" and such. Heh. Sorry, that seems random, doesn't it?

Anyway, Today we have no class until after noon. The snow is being a bitch. And I DO mean that. I nearly feel just coming to work. The brightness and ice is going to kill my retinas. I wish they would man up and cancel school for the day. I wanna work on my paper. *frown* Lemme list things due this week real quick, k?

-Overdue HW for Jap.
-Reading Roxana (I think I need the whole thing done this week?)
-Questions for hw for Psychology class
-Paper on courtship in early Japanese literature
-Presentation of Language and how it relates to the Brain, Development and such.
-I think I have a test? Maybe? In ANS105?
-Check out Seven Samurai again from the Blockbuster for club use
-A paper on why Anne Hutchinson was dangerous
-A test in Japanese

Hmmm...I think those are right. Heh. Looking at it like this, I realize I don't have that much to do. Which reminds me. I had an odd thought earlier. I thought "I need to hurry and get the things I want to do done so I can do the things I need to do" and then I realized most people would say this is backwards. But for me, it really isn't. I prioritize things I love and like over things I 'should' do. What does this 'should do' do for me? Well, you could answer that it helps me get a better grade, feel more confident in myself, and improve my social regard. That's all fine and dandy, but it also makes it hard for me to concentrate if I'm wanting something else. I end up stressed and worried about things that I don't have the heart or interest to do. I fall behind, not because of lack of effort, but because of too much effort when I wasn't ready to do something. Based on all of these things, it may just be a personal choice, but I think doing what I WANT to do, and then clearing my mind to do what I NEED to do, is the best way for me to live. Duty is generally something that comes first for me. I get it done ASAP when I can. If I can think of schoolwork as a duty, it's all the better, because I could get a ton of stuff done, but I can't do that. I really have tried, but when I think of school work as duty, I begin to wonder "Which part? Where do I start? Do they all weigh the same? Is it 'first come, first served/done'? How do I prioritize different classes?" These thoughts end up making me work even slower cause then I wonder if I should be doing something else. I really must like being difficult. I can't figure myself out half the time. :P

Hmmmm...I really don't know if I should stay awake and work on homework or if I should take a nap before my classes start today. I really wish they'd canceled classes for the whole day. It's frustrating to only miss one. That one is my favorite. It requires no effort. And it's so awesome. I learn so much in that class! ;__; Can't they make me miss a different class? Boooo....

Another "Booo" moment....I think I hurt my wrist. It hurts when I write. That might be really bad if it gets any worse. >.< It's cause I procrastinate, I just know it.

This is just an interesting article I found while browsing Psych Today's website. I was not intentionally looking for anything like this. That's my disclaimer:
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/love-lessons/200912/are-american-lovers-all-heart-without-much-fire-below-the-belt

Hmmmm...I'm gonna browse for a video for a bit, and then I'll get back to ya'll.


And another one for my own amusement: