Monday, April 11, 2016

I nearly quit today.

I'm fed up with my silly day job lately. It's extremely stressful. To give you an idea of how stressful: I take medicine to keep from getting heartburn daily. I had so much anxiety today that my medicine is no longer working. This medicine is no joke, it could poison you if you overdose on it, and my anxiety kicked its a**. Anyway. How I feel now....well except the fucking around:


I got written up at work for undercutting a bid and basically costing the company close to $700 dollars with a bid approval. There were a couple things that weren't my fault, but it started and ended with my mistakes, so I can accept that I f**ed up. I don't like how they did it though. Basically, I don't approve of public humiliation, and 'this is what I can't stand about you' being used in a work-place setting. They tell me that I'm killing them because I'm underbidding, but he only really gave me a good idea of how high I need to be bidding within the last couple of weeks. This bid was in February. And there's no clear answer given about 'Well what if I've done this with other bids without realizing it and we get those back?' even though I did specifically ask about it.

I did find a solution for the templates being off though: I can send the 'correct' version to the Training Coordinator (who I don't really like), and he'll fix it for me. The crews are getting frustrated with the templates not having everything they need to supply, and I'm frustrated with it too. I have two new girls that I'm trying to train, while I'm getting chewed out, while I'm trying to learn more, while I'm trying to get work submitted on time. I don't have time to check over each work order they send out to be sure they've written out all the instructions for a work order.

I really feel like I'm wasting time at this job. I wanted to stay for at least 6 months, and I'm technically nine days from that. But in the next four days, I'm required to put a deposit down for $150 on a Family Vacation my company is sponsoring, and if I leave, get put on probation, or get fired, I will lose that deposit, and it's too late to say no. Honestly, I was ready to walk out at the end of the day today and just never come back. After having a talk with the Training Co. and the Hiring Manager though, I felt a little better, and like I could keep trying.

EVERYONE except the owners admit my client is a bit**. EVERYONE admits that this client is THE WORST, and that they are really hard to work for. If I thought they would let me, I'd ask to be transferred to a different department like Vendor Management or Quality Control so I don't have to work with this client anymore, but I am literally the only one trained for them, as anyone I get trained leaves. ;__; I don't want this client. I don't like working for them because they are so damn persnickety.

Ahahaha, that reminds me. The Training Co. mentioned something like 'You've stated you're interested in becoming a Team Lead so...' and I guess I made a funny face, because he said 'You DO want to be a Team Lead, right?' and I shrugged a shoulder at him. I don't want to be a Team Lead. It's really not worth it. 80 hours a week, less than $30,000 a year, and constant abuse from the managers? No thanks. I'm not that hard up for cash.

Hubby says I need to at least give a two weeks notice as it looks bad on me otherwise. I can honestly say that of the 10+ people that have left this company, I can think of literally ONE that gave notice. And she was able to do that because she was moving away to further her schooling. I've already spoken with my previous supervisor (who has also quit and did not give two weeks notice), and she's promised to give me a good recommendation. With her recommendation instead of the company's I don't really feel that I need to give two weeks notice, but I guess it would keep me on better footing if I was ever desperate enough to go back to them.

It just feels like there's strings attached to EVERYTHING. At my massage job, if we leave the company in the next six months, we'll have to pay back the $250 dollars that the owner is forking over for us to be trained in oncology massage. I don't think it's fair to enslave us for six months, but I also agree that it's fair that if we take that training elsewhere and not contribute it to the company he deserves recompense. I just don't know that 12 CEUs is worth six months of work.

I would really appreciate everyone's input about this. I spoke with rozfire this weekend when we had lunch together (It was yummy and fun! She gave me some super cool books that I've been glancing through multiple times a day), and she said I should start searching for another job, but not quit until I find one, because job hunting can take months. My experience with job hunting is that it takes anywhere from 1-3 months for a job that isn't massage. I can get another massage job within two weeks for sure. The next job on my list is reception/secretary, and with the training I've gotten at this company, I feel much more prepared for a secretary position.

Awwww... Old People love! This was a touching video. The song is okay.

1 comment:

college kid said...

I think that you were just having really bad days. I am hoping that the steps that the owners are taking (passing some of your workload onto someone else for you to review later, working together directly with the owner so its done how he wants it) will alleviate some of the stress and anxiety you've been having, mostly due to what sounds like incomplete or inconsistent training from your previous supervisors. I think they really do want to keep you because they have lost so many people already and you are literally the only person who can help them with this client. Hopefully things will go well enough that we can make that trip to SC. A short vacation would probably do all of us some good since this year seems to have been one filled with changes and stress that I think none of us were really ready for.