Vacation!

By that I mean, No work for that mean company any more! Yay! I'm taking this week to recuperate, and then I'll start seriously searching for new jobs. I've really enjoyed sleeping in, and just doing massage. They're also willing to let me work additional hours, so if I want to just transition to massage only for my income, I can. I don't think that's good for my body though (my forearms in particular are in terrible shape and nearly need PT, but I'm squeaking by with massages instead), so I dont want that.

Interesting thing happened on Tuesday. We looked over a duplex, and we really liked it. Enough that we asked to fill out the form right then and turn it in. I hope they get back to us within a week so we can arrange to put in our 30 days notice. The only problem is that someone has already put in an application, so she may go with them instead, as they were there first. MJ wasn't with us, but our ratings came up to a nice 85%, so it's above our requirements, and right where I want it to be. The house was designed by an architect, and the rooms are REALLY cool. None of them are perfect square shapes, which makes me happy. There's some cracks in the drywall that concern me, but there's going to a few renovations done before we can move in anyway, so hopefully they'll be addressed then.
There's all kinds of built in shelves, and alcoves all over the house, and I like the layout. The back yard is small, but big enough for us to have a badminton match, so I think it'll be fine. There's a decent sized shed as well, so we have somewhere to store things. The rent is $975, which will be cheaper than our current apartment if we renew. There's only one bathroom, which sucks, but it's a really decent sized bathroom, and we can make MJ clean it everyday to try to keep her clutter down.
Both bedrooms have some cool features, so Hubby and I have been going back and forth about which one we would actually want to use for ourselves. The front room has sliding doors that lead out front, so MJ wouldn't have to go out the front door to get to her bus. It has a lot of natural light, and the room is a bit bigger than the back room, with a huge walk in closet. It also has about six feet of floor to ceiling cork board to hang things up on
The back room is smaller, but it has a built in chest of drawers, an alcove, 3 windows, and a closet with double rows to hang clothes on. There are no carpets, but there's a mud room when you go in, and it has a little heater that stays there, that we could light up in winter to keep warm and chill outside. There is this little weird thing where the first three feet of the living room is bricks, then wood flooring, and Hubby suggested a carpet to cover it up. I like the floorplan of the living room and dining room and kitchen all being one big room, with a bar separating the kitchen from the living room, and a little alcove near the back door that we could use to set things on.

So as you can probably tell, I'm kinda excited about this place, and I hope we get it. There's a couple of other options so far, but I'm not sure we'll like anywhere as much as we liked this one. There was a house across the street from this one that is also for rent, so I think I'll call tomorrow and see how much the rent is, and if we can come look at it. The location is awesome, it's only 7 minutes from Hubby's job by car, and maybe 10 by bus (all the other places were like 40-50 minutes bus ride from his stop), so if we don't hear back from this lady, I would definitely look into the other house. The area is a quiet cul-de-sac, but it's right near the road, and it seems a little noisy. I don't think we'll care that much about that though, as the insulation is really great in the house. Hm. I wonder how well wifi would get through the walls though.... Hn.

Hmmmm..... Life is good. I haven't slipped into any kind of depression over the job fiasco, though I am heavily conflicted about whether I say I resigned, or I was fired, as I gave two weeks, and they terminated me that day. What think you? What would you say?

Meghan Trainer reminds me of my cousin Deanna in this video, especially the hair, but the song too. It really reminds me of her. *tilts head* This cousin passed away two or three years ago, and she was only a year older than me.

Two Weeks

I noticed when rereading my blog post on Tuesday, that I didn't mention that management had made an error that left me without any support on Tuesday, with 20 Work orders, and 15 due that day. It was my breaking point.

So tomorrow I'll be putting in my two weeks notice, via letter/email to management. I still really really want to just say 'efffective immediately, I am resigning.' but Hubbikins disapproves of this, and I know they might need help getting FB sorted before I go. On the other hand, I've apparently screwed up fairly badly with two work orders that is basically leaving me looking like a stupid filthy dog (or at least thats how I'm being treated). They're costly mistakes too, that makes me very upset on behalf of my company, and vaguely resentful towards my client for putting me in this position, because it's basically 'Oh we didn't notice it either until now, but you should have. Since you didn't, you dish out the $6,000 it's gonna take to fix it!' *Grimace*

I don't like leaving on a bad note like this, I wish I could leave as a successful, useful member of the staff, but it's more and more likely they're going to take what knowledge I can offer and then just tell me to leave. At this point, finishing there any day before the 24th is going to be taken as a victory, even if it's a sour, 'get the hell out' situation.

I'm trying to arrange things so that future Team Members for my client have all the resources that I didn't. It takes a bit of planning, honestly, and with my client keeping us above 100 active work orders, it's a little difficult to find time to do it. I do however feel that the more resources they're able to find, the more successful the company will be able to continue to be in the end.

Oh, here's my letter, if anyone has any critiques, please let me know ASAP so I can make them before I send it tomorrow before I head in to work.

To Whom It May Concern,

I, Runa, am tendering my Two Weeks Notice effective 6/11/2016 to Company Name. I have had the great opportunity to learn and grow with this company for the last several months, and while I have enjoyed my time here, I feel it is time for me to explore my horizons in a new field. I have learned so much about Property Preservation thanks to your time and efforts, and I am very thankful for the experience but I feel that I am beginning to stagnate as an employee, and am no longer performing my best work. Rather than give less than my very best effort, I would prefer to end my employment while I am able to give my all.

I am humbly grateful to everyone at Company for the patience, attention, and positive attitudes they have displayed towards my endless curiosity and questions.I came into this position with zero knowledge of what an HVAC is, why water stains are bad, or even how to effectively eradicate mold to a Governmental standard. My current knowledge level is entirely due to the willingness of the staff and management at CPR to check over my bids, identify strange objects in photos, and answering sometimes impertinent or even stupid questions. 

Thank you for the experience, and I wish you all the best in the future. May your company continue to grow until it reaches across the nation and is held up as the pinnacle of professional property preservation. Thank you for your time.

Runa

A lot of my sentences are tongue in cheek sarcasm, actually, as I rarely found support, patience, positive attitudes, or attention unless I fought for it. Many of my mistakes were because someone higher up didn't have time to answer my questions, and the answers had to be given on a timeline that they did not adhere to. Still, I am trying to end it on a positive note. How uncouth would it be to give my two weeks and maybe come in for a day or two and then just stop before the two weeks is up? Really. Because I get the feeling it is either going to be a bittersweet experience, or very bitter, trying, and caustic. I'm nervous. But I'm elated at the idea that I might not have to return to them again. 

So, my Auntie Died last night.

She was really getting on in years. I cried immediately when my mom told me, and though I'm sad, it's not the consuming grief that I felt when Granma died. She died in her sleep, which helps, cause at her age, that's honestly prolly the best way to go.

I've been thinking about it off and on today, and in the shower I realized she was prolly my favorite Aunt. I've always wanted to make her proud of me, and I've always enjoyed visiting with her. It's sad that she's gone, but her mind was already going, so I'm glad she's not unhappy anymore, and maybe she's walking where she is now.

On a less bad note: We visited a duplex today. Rent was $825, but there was some tiny bugs, a broken window pane, and the bathroom downstairs was super tiny. I liked it, but Hubby didn't really. We all rated it at 1 to 10, with 10 being 'Sign me up now!' and it got a combined score of 19, so it didn't pass at ~65%.

That's all.

Depressing thoughts

Hello dears. It's been a while since I've posted. I'm close to the thing that makes me a fertile woman, and it's caused me to have some rather depressing thoughts, like how overweight I am, how ugly, how lazy and useless, and how horrible in general I am. I don't know if anyone gets this experience once a month, where you self-hate for nearly a week, but I am *not* enjoying it.

Even as I'm having the thoughts, I combat it with 'I'm overweight, but I'm very healthy. My well-check showed my only issue is a lack of good cholesterol, and everything else is actually really good.' or 'Well, maybe I'm not pretty to me, but Hubby thinks I'm beautiful. That means I have to be at least a little attractive.' or 'I work really hard at two jobs, and I still try to do things with my family, instead of collapsing and sleeping whenever I'm at home.' or 'I'm useful! I can do lots of things others can't.' or 'I'm sadistic and mean, that's true, but I'm still a pretty good person overall.' but even as I'm combatting it, my mood just sinks lower and lower.

It's depressing. In other news, the munchkin is taking on more and more of our mannerisms, and it's kinda fun to watch. She'll open her mouth and Hubby Jr or Runa Jr will pop out and shock us. It's fun to see what she 'catches' from us.

I feel like I'm getting a little overwhelmed working two jobs, and I'm thinking of trying to switch to a bank job that's still doing preservation work (since I've gotten all trained up, after all). I think they would offer comparable pay, and i'd be able to see my job from the opposite side, and they'd prolly not work me as hard, and have more days off and more reasonable expectations of 'working at home'.

Unfortunately, I don't see myself quitting until the owners come back, and they'll be gone for nearly a month. I'm not sure why, but there's rumors of the Head Man getting sick, so maybe that's it. On the plus side, they gave me a second dependable minion to chuck work onto (not really, she's just very dependable, and she's on thin ice since she caused a $20,000 mistake, so I have to check over all of her work). On the minus side, my client tried to make us install an HVAC for free (at our own cost) because 'we didn't report it missing on the damages report' but I did report it was missing. I didn't bid to replace all the appliances, why would I bid to replace the HVAC, especially when it's out of my crew's scope? Doesn't make sense, so I am disputing it, and I hope I win, because damn it, that's like $6,000 to complete. I reeeaaaally don't want to deal with that.

Hm. I could talk about how we're trying to find a new place to live, and stopped by an apartment place that was pretty nice, but a little expensive, and the homes were little lame and the windows were kinda scary, but overall it wasn't a bad place, but I don't really wanna. Teehee. Talk to you later.