Heyla~!

Life is an amazing and disgusting thing. In various ways. Being at home for a week with idiots and dependents and poor kids that don't have any say, and other kids that have all the say is probably one of the most stressful things I can experience. Hm. I was overcome with the random worry that I won't see them again. I do love them all. I just can't stand to watch them willing drop into mud instead of struggling to get out of it. They don't even have fun dropping into the mud, they curse and complain and cry about how it's not their fault they rolled into it themselves. Okay. I complain too much. In the spirit of embracing myself, I'm gonna do it to my heart's content!
SO MUCH WORK!!!!! Omgosh! Really, Teachers?! I am NOT superwoman! In fact, I'm a susceptible person to temptation! If I can do ANYTHING else besides work, I WILL DO IT! I don't even have to want to do it, just have the chance to! Don't look at me all disappointed when I get behind! >.<
Sometimes when I'm asking questions or something, I have moments where I just feel utterly stupid, like peeps in class are sitting there thinking "Why was she even allowed in here? She doesn't know shit." It makes me worried.
I have an eye problem! The doctor wanted me to go see an eye doctor, but I don't have one, or insurance for it, or the money for it. So I refused. She gave me some eye drops and told me to schedule a follow-up, so I did. The eye drops are amazing! I'm supposed to use them 4 times a day, 2 drops each time. Well, my eye won't fit two drops. It ends up wasted if I do two, so I do one. But everytime I use it, the itching and painful feeling in my eye eases and goes away~! After I used it the first time, I checked online, cause I was impressed with the soothing power of it. Apparently, it's supposed to cause irritation....*hangs head* I suppose that makes perfect sense in a warped, messed up kind of way. I have so many applications to fill out! But this time, I'll call first and make sure they aren't fully staffed first. I feel like such a fool for giving all those sweet people recommendations forms and basically wasting their time because they were fully staffed.
I had a paper due this week that I actually don't think is half-bad, especially considering I finished only an hour or two before class. I had fun in history this week because I got to be like "Sell me your dauuughhhhtersssssss" (Insert Creepy voice and salivating mouth) for factories. We kicked ASS! The parents were like (the ppl playing parents) "....Well damn. Just let me pack her up nice and tidy for you." Our opposition was lame. They weren't very good at it. There were lots of good reasons why the girls should have stayed home, and the only called up one important one (IMO). I'm so TIIIIIRED~! I need sleeeeeep! I got maybe an hour before work, since Language Table was last night. I have a Tea Ceremony at Duke Gardens today, and then sushi, followed by Contra Dancing.
Okay, I ended up looking over dresses to find my cousin her birthday, and me a little happy package. I was foiled at every turn. It's prolly for the best. DAMNIT! The next shift hasn't shown! It's 20 minutes past the time I was supposed to be off, and sweetly dreaming in my delicious bed! I;m so tired I'm not certain I can stand straight, and he's not picking up at all. I don't wanna deal with this when my weekend is packed and stressful looking all by itself.
Brief Overview of Weekend:
-Japan Table
-1 hour of sleep
-8 hours of work
-MAYBE 4 hours of sleep
-Tea Ceremony
-MAYBE sushi
-Contra for 4 hours
-MAYBE food, DEFINITELY a shower
-Work for 4 hours
-SLEEP for TWELVE (if possible) hours
-Go on a double date with M-chan and her bf and my bf
-Come home after 3-4 hours
-Sleep- I *WILL* Get sleep! *glares at bf*
-Go back to work, hopefully do the hw I need to turn in.
And by then, it's Monday again.

Actually, I didn't finish this, and ended up leaving it all day. The Tea Ceremony was impressive. I feel really guilty for being one of the guests that actually got to be on the tatami mats and actively participate in it. I've done it before. I should have let someone else do it. I stopped by the person who was gathering volunteers, and she counted me....I couldn't say I DIDNT want to, cause that would be a lie, but I really shouldn't have done it. I'm sure others would have liked to feel the blood seep out of their legs until they went completely numb and had to be brought back to life in a painful awakening.
I'm considering writing a tag on my shirt that says "Caution: Bad Breath" because I can't seem to avoid foods that make my breath stink today. But they taste so guud (sp intended)~! BTW, isn't it kinda oxymoronish to eat a low-fat dip with carrots and drink a soda? =.= Oh well.
I actually left Contra early tonight. I got kinda bored with it. All my partners were too gentle with me, except for this new guy that didn't know how to grip properly. Every time I went to tell him, I froze, cause I didn't know when good timing would be to tell him that. He was very enthusiastic about pulling me into his arms though. Even with the wrong grip. It was cute. =.= Though I occasionally just kinda fell into his arms cause of the vigor. Heh. Okay, sorry, he was rather cute, being all nervous, and his curiously deep voice, and how taaaall he was. Eheh. And then....okay, now I'm rambling about a random guy whose name I'm not even sure I know. I think if I tried super hard, I could remember. But I just don't care that much. I missed K-chan. She couldn't come tonight, and I'd come to depend on her to be my comfort. I DID get to Waltz tonight though. It was GREAT! One guy randomly sweeps me up, and directs me in the Victorian style. Another guy asks, I tell him I'm bad at it, and he's like "I'm sure together we'll manage to work something out." It was nice. Tonight was one of the first nights I didn't particularly have to ask guys to be my partner. They asked me! *happyhappyhappy* Oh, there was this one time, where I went to ask a guy, and a guy went to ask the girl near the guy I was about to ask, when that guy asked the girl, so both of us automatically just kinda turned to each other and went on the dance floor without ever really stopping. It was actually pretty funny. I think I said something kinda witty like "Guess we're both the left-overs" or something, but I can't honestly remember. Heheh.
I lotioned up after my shower for the first time in a while. I really need to get back in the habit of doing that. It's better for my skin.
Today when I get up I'm gonna go buy myself a birthday cake with the money my mom gave me to get myself a birthday gift. I'm excited about that, though I feel sad that I have to buy my own cake. (This is NOT me asking for anyone to buy my cake!) At least if it's bad, it'll have been my own fault for picking it. ^.^
I'm so excited about the beach trip I'm taking with K-chan over Easter Break. I'm excited about the small paycheck, but I really wanna go take a few days at the beach for once. I always plan things like that and nothing turns out right. But this is spontaneous and safe enough for me to be excited.

Okay, I'm bored with typing now. Lemme find a video and I'll post this.

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Quote of the Day: "Friendship isn't about who you have known the longest.
...but about who came and never left your side."