So, while I feel that going at my own pace is a very good idea indeed, I'm finding that my classes are easy to fail. Not that I'm completely failing, more like....I'm really sick of it already. I try, I think I do well, and I crash and burn. I'm dreading anything and everything I get back. I hand it in with medium or high hopes. I'm gonna take this break, and use it to get caught up or ahead of all my classes. If I can. My sister may be going insane (the dangerous kind) and I may be losing my stability. I have to give her something to hold onto, so I am, once again, going to go in ready for battle. But the best armor to have? The invisible kind. I have to stay 'open' and 'relaxed' until I get attacked. And I can be attacked by anyone when I go. That's the danger. I'm jumping into a den of wolves without remorse. I don't want to. And I don't know how tightly I can hold onto those I trust. I don't want to strangle them. I don't want to cause them problems. I want to bawl my eyes out and feel no guilt or remorse for doing it. Can I do that? -_- *Sigh* Not in me.
On a very different note: I GOT TO SEE ROZFIRE AND NO ONE ELSE DID! HA! TAKE THAT! WHOOOOO! TOTAL SCORE!!! It was too short...I got nervous in front of her group of ppl, like I was being stared at. It got to be where I was slightly afraid to look behind me. I really don't do well with ppl I don't know.....-_-;; Did I hide it well enough though? I got so excited to see Roz that I actually walked faster and faster til I was nearly running. lol. Then I did run when Roz came towards me! ^_^ It was AWESOME seeing her. The highlight to my day.
Then I handed off the Rape phone and took a test. The test made me feel rather...unprepared. It wasn't too difficult, there just...there wasn't alot on it, so every bit counted, you know? *sigh*
I got to eat a Root Beer Float for dinner and strawberry shortcake. Yum. I need to finish my soup that I opened the other night tonight before I leave for the week. Don't wanna deal with it when I get back, y'know?
Kpes, that's all for now. Comments would be nice though, since I slightly spilt my guts.
Rozfire is right, this is hilarious: (I certainly got a kick out of it)
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Secretaries....somewhat frustrating, and not in the good way
So....Today.....yeah.....no.
So, I woke up and went to class. When I thought I'd be late to class and I should hurry up, I.....sorta kept walking at my pace. I basically did that the entire day. I went at my pace, didn't try to do anything that didn't fit with what I felt like, and just....was prepared for the consequences. I however, suffered none. It was odd. I kept expecting to be late, or in trouble, or something. And I wasn't. Very odd. But then my day of calmness died. It died, funnily enough, when the Secretary of my HC, who didn't show last week, didn't tell me why, and didn't even ask me anything before she tried to start doing shit(she had this attitude of 'SHE can't know what I want to know') began acting huffy and such before we EVER START!!! When I get the whole election process started, she interrupts me, talks over me, and contradicts me!! I'M THE ONE WHO DESIGNED THE ELECTION PROCESS DAMN YOUUUUUUUUU!!!! When she started with "Well in the email Paris sent, she said for us to..." I snapped a little. I cut her off, and said "Well, that's what I asked her to write, (I think I said that) and I'm changing it now to suit the new situation." I mean, I did my absolute best to deal with her, but she was so IMPATIENT! With EVERYONE but her friend. And it was so RUDE to EVERYONE! One person, who wasn't our resident, Ms. Secretary gave her a paper. Okay, that was SECRETARY's fault. Not that person! Secretary SNATCHES the paper back, when she was all "You aren't our resident?" and the poor girl turns to me. I was like "Ummm...." and she said "She's really freindly, isn't she?" and I wanted to laugh. I think i was like "Yeah...you could say that...." What was I supposed to say to that? It was true, the woman was amazingly assertive, and uncaring about anyone else.
Look, let me set you peeps straight. (You don't need it, but damn I wanna say it, and I may as well say it to my loved ones) JUST BECAUSE I DON'T COMPLAIN, IT DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T HAVE JUST AS MUCH ON MY PLATE AS ANYONE ELSE!!!!!!!!! *Phew* Okay. Becaaaause, she was all "I have places to be. Let's get this done." URGH!!! We don't have places to be??? She just....she acts as though I don't have the capability to do anything, and like I'm a figurehead, not a capable person. Urgh. Oh well. I'm sure with time it'll get solved.
So, today I finished one of the pages for the YEARBOOK! TWO LEFT: WHOOOOOOOOT! I also got a box of skintimate shaving cream....it's awesome, really. Except it's for Rasberry Rain....*sigh* I wonder why I always receive Rasberry scented things. I really don't like them. Oh well. I needed it. Thanks to rozfire for listening to me rant and grunt and rave about that woman. Thanks to bf for showing up and making me happy at lunch. Thanks to the world for things still running smoothly even though there's someone really annoying around. ^_^ G'niiiiiight.
What I need to do:
So, I woke up and went to class. When I thought I'd be late to class and I should hurry up, I.....sorta kept walking at my pace. I basically did that the entire day. I went at my pace, didn't try to do anything that didn't fit with what I felt like, and just....was prepared for the consequences. I however, suffered none. It was odd. I kept expecting to be late, or in trouble, or something. And I wasn't. Very odd. But then my day of calmness died. It died, funnily enough, when the Secretary of my HC, who didn't show last week, didn't tell me why, and didn't even ask me anything before she tried to start doing shit(she had this attitude of 'SHE can't know what I want to know') began acting huffy and such before we EVER START!!! When I get the whole election process started, she interrupts me, talks over me, and contradicts me!! I'M THE ONE WHO DESIGNED THE ELECTION PROCESS DAMN YOUUUUUUUUU!!!! When she started with "Well in the email Paris sent, she said for us to..." I snapped a little. I cut her off, and said "Well, that's what I asked her to write, (I think I said that) and I'm changing it now to suit the new situation." I mean, I did my absolute best to deal with her, but she was so IMPATIENT! With EVERYONE but her friend. And it was so RUDE to EVERYONE! One person, who wasn't our resident, Ms. Secretary gave her a paper. Okay, that was SECRETARY's fault. Not that person! Secretary SNATCHES the paper back, when she was all "You aren't our resident?" and the poor girl turns to me. I was like "Ummm...." and she said "She's really freindly, isn't she?" and I wanted to laugh. I think i was like "Yeah...you could say that...." What was I supposed to say to that? It was true, the woman was amazingly assertive, and uncaring about anyone else.
Look, let me set you peeps straight. (You don't need it, but damn I wanna say it, and I may as well say it to my loved ones) JUST BECAUSE I DON'T COMPLAIN, IT DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T HAVE JUST AS MUCH ON MY PLATE AS ANYONE ELSE!!!!!!!!! *Phew* Okay. Becaaaause, she was all "I have places to be. Let's get this done." URGH!!! We don't have places to be??? She just....she acts as though I don't have the capability to do anything, and like I'm a figurehead, not a capable person. Urgh. Oh well. I'm sure with time it'll get solved.
So, today I finished one of the pages for the YEARBOOK! TWO LEFT: WHOOOOOOOOT! I also got a box of skintimate shaving cream....it's awesome, really. Except it's for Rasberry Rain....*sigh* I wonder why I always receive Rasberry scented things. I really don't like them. Oh well. I needed it. Thanks to rozfire for listening to me rant and grunt and rave about that woman. Thanks to bf for showing up and making me happy at lunch. Thanks to the world for things still running smoothly even though there's someone really annoying around. ^_^ G'niiiiiight.
What I need to do:
Monday, February 23, 2009
Interesting what I find when I research my topic..
Passionate Love Scale Results:
Your scores are: 131
The total score can range from a minimum of 15 to a maximum of 135. The higher your score, the more your feelings for the person reflect passionate love; the items to which you gave a particularly high score reflect those components of passionate love that you experience
Extremely passionate = 106-135 points
When men and women are wildly in love, they can’t stop thinking about the other, their hearts pound, their pulses race, and they find it impossible to keep away from the objects of their desire—even when pursuit is dangerous or foolish.
http://www.prenhall.com/divisions/hss/app/social/chap10_1.html
Funny Movie:
*One robot is singing a song about having a heart and taps a smarter, more advanced robot that has emotions on the chest while singing that song from The Wizard of Oz. The smarter robot looks up and asks a question of the human mechanic he's working with.* "Do you have a drill?" "Yes, it's over on the shelf there." "Thank you. Excuse me." *Singing continues* *Drill starts up* *Dumb robot starts screaming* "HOLY MOTHER OF HELL!!!"
Your scores are: 131
The total score can range from a minimum of 15 to a maximum of 135. The higher your score, the more your feelings for the person reflect passionate love; the items to which you gave a particularly high score reflect those components of passionate love that you experience
Extremely passionate = 106-135 points
When men and women are wildly in love, they can’t stop thinking about the other, their hearts pound, their pulses race, and they find it impossible to keep away from the objects of their desire—even when pursuit is dangerous or foolish.
http://www.prenhall.com/divisions/hss/app/social/chap10_1.html
Funny Movie:
*One robot is singing a song about having a heart and taps a smarter, more advanced robot that has emotions on the chest while singing that song from The Wizard of Oz. The smarter robot looks up and asks a question of the human mechanic he's working with.* "Do you have a drill?" "Yes, it's over on the shelf there." "Thank you. Excuse me." *Singing continues* *Drill starts up* *Dumb robot starts screaming* "HOLY MOTHER OF HELL!!!"
Signs of a Romantic Love's progression
It's some chewy words, but totally funny and typically accurate:
Romantic love begins as an individual starts to
regard another individual as special and unique. The
lover then focuses his/her attention on the beloved,
aggrandizing the beloved’s worthy traits and overlooking
or minimizing his/her flaws. The lover
expresses increased energy, ecstasy when the love affair
is going well and mood swings into despair during times
of adversity. Adversity and barriers heighten romantic
passion, what has been referred to as ‘frustration
attraction’ (Fisher 2004). The lover suffers ‘separation
anxiety’ when apart from the beloved and a host of
sympathetic nervous system reactions when with the
beloved, including sweating and a pounding heart.
Lovers are emotionally dependent; they change their
priorities and daily habits to remain in contact with
and/or impress the beloved. Smitten humans also
exhibit empathy for the beloved; many are willing to
sacrifice, even die for this ‘special’ other. The lover
expresses sexual desire for the beloved, as well as
intense sexual possessiveness, mate guarding. Yet the
lover’s craving for emotional union supersedes his/her
craving for sexual union with the beloved. Most
characteristic, the lover thinks obsessively about the
beloved, ‘intrusive thinking’. Rejected lovers first
experience a phase of protest, during which they try
to win back the beloved and often feel abandonment
rage; then they move into the second stage of rejection,
associated with resignation and despair. Romantic love
is also involuntary, difficult to control and generally
impermanent.
So did you understand it? ^_^
Romantic love begins as an individual starts to
regard another individual as special and unique. The
lover then focuses his/her attention on the beloved,
aggrandizing the beloved’s worthy traits and overlooking
or minimizing his/her flaws. The lover
expresses increased energy, ecstasy when the love affair
is going well and mood swings into despair during times
of adversity. Adversity and barriers heighten romantic
passion, what has been referred to as ‘frustration
attraction’ (Fisher 2004). The lover suffers ‘separation
anxiety’ when apart from the beloved and a host of
sympathetic nervous system reactions when with the
beloved, including sweating and a pounding heart.
Lovers are emotionally dependent; they change their
priorities and daily habits to remain in contact with
and/or impress the beloved. Smitten humans also
exhibit empathy for the beloved; many are willing to
sacrifice, even die for this ‘special’ other. The lover
expresses sexual desire for the beloved, as well as
intense sexual possessiveness, mate guarding. Yet the
lover’s craving for emotional union supersedes his/her
craving for sexual union with the beloved. Most
characteristic, the lover thinks obsessively about the
beloved, ‘intrusive thinking’. Rejected lovers first
experience a phase of protest, during which they try
to win back the beloved and often feel abandonment
rage; then they move into the second stage of rejection,
associated with resignation and despair. Romantic love
is also involuntary, difficult to control and generally
impermanent.
So did you understand it? ^_^
Sunday, February 22, 2009
It's my mom's birthday.....she didn't get a call from me til 10 pm at night....
And boy was she pissed. Urrrgh. I thought about it all week, but I didn't anticipate that my 30 minute break (the only one I should have had since waking) would be taken in a new meeting. One that was not on the planner. I even forgot to get on duty. I need her to be more understanding, and it seems like she just wants to be bitter! I've had a hard day.
I had a meeting at 10. I woke up at 10 15. I was at my meeting at 10 40. My 'boss' called me twice. Y'know what I thought it was? My alarm clock. Sad, sad world. They all understood. But still...I held up the entire meeting.... Then we ate a weird place, and I ended up ordering something that was too spicy for me to stand. So I ate the delicious meat, and the okay salad, and everyone laughed at my face when i tried to eat it. I won't do that again. After we came back, I went right into another meeting. Then an unexpected one. Then another one. And then I had to help set up and judge the WWW events. Then the judging took an extra hour because no one knew the info had to be submitted BEFORE 5. So ppl came in at 7 30 and we had to judge them too! Urrrgh. Then we had pokey stixs and ice cream (which made me much better) along with karaoke and video veiwing while we passed out the prizes. Then on my way back, I got to walk with a freind, and then had to wait at a bus stop for a freind, (my hands went numb waiting, but i had a whole box of pokey stix) and while I was waiting, another freind drove up and asked if i wanted a ride back, since it was on his way. I had to decline, but that he cared enough to ask if i wanted his help really made me feel better. Then my friend showed, and we walked back to my place. He offered his sweatshirt, but it was just too cold to be outside in a T shirt! (I didn't dress appropriately for the weather due to my tardiness) Then of course, I realized my mom's birthday was today (after the appropriate time for calling was over) So I called my sis, who's friend died today by gunshot, (I didn't know) and her friend called mom, so mom called me and i tried to wish her a happy birthday. She wasn't very receptive though. Then I realized I hadn't activated my phone for duty at 7 like I was supposed to. So I did that, but it was like 10 30! Then we got back here, and I've just been bitching and procrastinating and not doing what i should be. I'll go do my hw now. Or watch anime. I'd prefer the anime.
Quote of the Day: "I can't believe I'm not turned on!" *referring to being logged on to blogger*
I had a meeting at 10. I woke up at 10 15. I was at my meeting at 10 40. My 'boss' called me twice. Y'know what I thought it was? My alarm clock. Sad, sad world. They all understood. But still...I held up the entire meeting.... Then we ate a weird place, and I ended up ordering something that was too spicy for me to stand. So I ate the delicious meat, and the okay salad, and everyone laughed at my face when i tried to eat it. I won't do that again. After we came back, I went right into another meeting. Then an unexpected one. Then another one. And then I had to help set up and judge the WWW events. Then the judging took an extra hour because no one knew the info had to be submitted BEFORE 5. So ppl came in at 7 30 and we had to judge them too! Urrrgh. Then we had pokey stixs and ice cream (which made me much better) along with karaoke and video veiwing while we passed out the prizes. Then on my way back, I got to walk with a freind, and then had to wait at a bus stop for a freind, (my hands went numb waiting, but i had a whole box of pokey stix) and while I was waiting, another freind drove up and asked if i wanted a ride back, since it was on his way. I had to decline, but that he cared enough to ask if i wanted his help really made me feel better. Then my friend showed, and we walked back to my place. He offered his sweatshirt, but it was just too cold to be outside in a T shirt! (I didn't dress appropriately for the weather due to my tardiness) Then of course, I realized my mom's birthday was today (after the appropriate time for calling was over) So I called my sis, who's friend died today by gunshot, (I didn't know) and her friend called mom, so mom called me and i tried to wish her a happy birthday. She wasn't very receptive though. Then I realized I hadn't activated my phone for duty at 7 like I was supposed to. So I did that, but it was like 10 30! Then we got back here, and I've just been bitching and procrastinating and not doing what i should be. I'll go do my hw now. Or watch anime. I'd prefer the anime.
Quote of the Day: "I can't believe I'm not turned on!" *referring to being logged on to blogger*
I'm tired, but sleep is long in coming
Sorry I haven't posted lately. I've been reading a bit of manga here, a bit of hw there, but I can't seem to go to sleep. Guess it's cause I slept til 6. Can you believe it? I slept til SIX PM!!! I really shoulda gotten up, but no one made me, and I didn't have anything I had to do, so it just....it was still way too much though. I mean, I know i've had a lack of sleep lately, but that's no excuse.
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Ahahahahaha. I just finished a manga about a lesbian and a playboy. It was awesome!! So, the guy had never fallen in love before, but then he meets a female that is in love with her straight female freind. It's so complicated, but it's so funny. So in the end, the straight woman ends up pregnant, and the lesbian is heartbroken. The playboy fell for her, and is trying to get her to slowly fall for him. Even the girl's DAD is telling him to just go for it!! And he's 'telling his mother' about it. And he's like, "Even though she may be over Rena(the pregnant woman) it doesn't mean she's lost interest in women. That, Mother, that is why I sigh." Ending scene: He's holding hands with her, and she's staring after a really pretty female, while he sighs. Hahahaha.
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Oh, right, I stopped posting in the middle, didn't I? So, tomorrow is PACKED for me. *cry* I've just got so much to do.... I should really work on those things or sleep so I can wake up and work on those things. But I just don't have that self-control. Urgh...Now it's nearly 5 am....*sigh* I hope I can get a bit of sleep this time. Sorry, besides ordering pizza and hanging out with Firecrotch and bf, I haven't done anything today. Oddly enough, my rib cage feels rather painful...I haven't done anything to promote that though.....hn.
Random complaint/embarrassment: It's SUPER embarrassing when someone sits there and talks about your sterling qualities as a leader with you sitting there beside them. >.<
Quote of the Day: "If you don't move in five seconds, I'm going to jump you." "Really?" *Smug smirk* *counts down and the other one doesn't move* *runs* *jumps* *lands* "Oomph" "Didn't say what kind of jumping I'd do."
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Ahahahahaha. I just finished a manga about a lesbian and a playboy. It was awesome!! So, the guy had never fallen in love before, but then he meets a female that is in love with her straight female freind. It's so complicated, but it's so funny. So in the end, the straight woman ends up pregnant, and the lesbian is heartbroken. The playboy fell for her, and is trying to get her to slowly fall for him. Even the girl's DAD is telling him to just go for it!! And he's 'telling his mother' about it. And he's like, "Even though she may be over Rena(the pregnant woman) it doesn't mean she's lost interest in women. That, Mother, that is why I sigh." Ending scene: He's holding hands with her, and she's staring after a really pretty female, while he sighs. Hahahaha.
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Oh, right, I stopped posting in the middle, didn't I? So, tomorrow is PACKED for me. *cry* I've just got so much to do.... I should really work on those things or sleep so I can wake up and work on those things. But I just don't have that self-control. Urgh...Now it's nearly 5 am....*sigh* I hope I can get a bit of sleep this time. Sorry, besides ordering pizza and hanging out with Firecrotch and bf, I haven't done anything today. Oddly enough, my rib cage feels rather painful...I haven't done anything to promote that though.....hn.
Random complaint/embarrassment: It's SUPER embarrassing when someone sits there and talks about your sterling qualities as a leader with you sitting there beside them. >.<
Quote of the Day: "If you don't move in five seconds, I'm going to jump you." "Really?" *Smug smirk* *counts down and the other one doesn't move* *runs* *jumps* *lands* "Oomph" "Didn't say what kind of jumping I'd do."
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