Funnnnn

"There're people!!"
"No one that can see what we're doing."
"Damn it....where are all the people?"

~This isn't quite right, but it's close enough

Between moan-packed kisses, we smiled and explored each other, until we couldn't take the pressure any more and burst out laughing. Yes, we were moaning comments without words in a tune that we couldn't help but find utterly funny.

All the Same

How does one deal with the envy or disdain of others? I hate it, and I always think, "If only they were as smart," or "If only they were as outspoken," or even "If only they didn't care, like me." But then I think of that episode of The Fairly Oddparents, when Timmy wished that everyone was the same. And how boring, and how others always found a way to hate on the others. And I realize it's going to happen to someone, and I may as well be their target. But I can't really help the frustration and self-pity.
I might be a little too vague with this. Basically, When I have talked, or asked questions, I occasionally get rude snickers or dissenting people making quiet comments. I don't like that. Most of the time, I don't ask a question for my own benefit, but because the others don't understand and I think that if he explains 'this' then they'll finally understand 'that'. But I really don't like standing out that much. I mean, I like having friends, and being able to talk when and how I want to, but I don't want people envying or hating me. How do you guys deal with it? It makes me want to stop trying to learn. (Don't scold me, you'll just make me angry. I don't want to stop trying either)

Not a great start......

So, not only did I wake up inixplicaby during the sleeping hours, but when i did get up, the alarm clock wrapped itself around my hair, and TRIED TO EAT MEEEEE.

Moments in Time

Amusing moment: bf hasn't updated in a while, so I told him to. He said that kk hadn't told him to update it yet, but she responded to mine more often.
bf: kk doesnt care as much about my posts as yours.
me: lol. so kk telling you to do it is more influential than me telling you to?

KYAH! Moment: http://www.onemanga.com/Kaichou_wa_Maid-sama/27/31/

Damn.... moment: Ran to one meeting, after it ended, waited for bf, then ran to next event. At the next event, we find out that it was moved to two hours previously. Damn...

Chills moment: I found a tiny, sickly white bug shaped like a scorpion in my clothing. guaaaaah.....*goosebumbs*

Cuuuuute moment: bf and I get back to my room, lay down together, and fall asleep, with the light on and music playing. There wasn't even sexual stuff going on previously. Just wrapped in his arms, being cuddled.

I got lied to! Moment: Apparently the new guy had some appointment on Saturday afternoon, so I have to work then. *NOOOOOO! My plans for bf's birthdayyyyy* Also, they need help in the afternoons on Thursday and Friday rather badly, so I get to run to work after class finishes tomorrow. Whoooo me.

Jealous moment: I remembered that bf had to tutor two girls today. I didn't mind. Til I saw him. *cries* he wore his glasses...he's so adorable when he does that....noooo.....And apparently he taught them like he taught me. Just going over the webassigns.

Interesting moment: I followed a person to their room today, and then talked with them for a while. Yes, I talked to my teacher for forever, and then had to rush to dinner with bf and E and C. The first two showed up after calling me while i was conversing and agreeing to meet me at his office. The last one took too long to get down stairs! I ran to my meeting, and got there right before the introductions. (I'm the second person to go)

Basically, if you haven't guessed, I don't really remember my day anymore. I think i need to commit more time to my language hws though. I want straight As this semester, but I'm not putting in the work that would earn that. So I need to remind myself to do that.

Quote of the Day: (yes, it's creepy, but I find it fascinating)

"He said don't try to scream now
But I want this one to hurt
And tonight my pretty one
I'm gonna get my money's worth

He said they never listen
She said they'd never understand
That I don't this for pleasure
I just do it cause I can

I swear I didn't want to
And I swear I didn't know
That things like this could happen
To a 17-year old"

~Father's Son, by Three Doors Down

SEXed up

Update: Sad, but this is the first song I wanted to hear when I went on youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z47EUaIFrdQ&feature=PlayList&p=5DFA7BEB54238717&index=0&playnext=1

So, I have always thought that if one of us (being my couply couple status us) was defined as the sexed up one, it would be me. But I was told today that my bf seemed sexed up! Soooo funny.
I skipped my first class of the year. Badminton. I wasn't feeling well. I didn't want to get hurt, since I have a job now, and it would affect my hours. So sad, it takes a job to get me to take care of myself. I like blogging. It's fun. I hope Sarah will come and blog too, so that we can all be a happy blogging party. I get the feeling that blogs are gonna be websensed though. lol.
I also went to English, where I can see the old heirarchy of idiots belittling intelligence. It makes me angry. ^_^ So I will not be kind to them.
Hahaha bf got called sexed up.
I got to talk to kk today. YAYS~!
I took a Spanish test today.....I died a little inside. The test wasn't all that difficult, I just didn't know what I was doing. I'm gonna practice my Spanish with the peeps I work with from now on. Maybe I'll improve.
In Japanese we took a Kanji quiz. I beasted it. I just hope I retain these things I'm learning. I like them.
bf ruffled me up a lot today. And it rained BUCKETS!!! It was so cool. Except that bf opened my blinds when i didn't have clothing on, and I was like WAAAAH!!! Peeps could see me!!! And he was all "There isn't anyone there...Chill out." It was freaky. I'm not an exhibitionist to THAT extent.....sheesh.

Quote of the Day: "My name is Marianna and I would rather kiss a SHEEP!"-"And you call me a deviant?" *A shoe flew threw the air, missing his head by an inch*

Awesomer Quote of the Day: "I'd wager with a swallow or two of brandy you'd find me a right dasher, but here I've had half a bottle and you're still plain as a post."-Can anyone say "Ouuuch.."

Phew

So, I took a nice shower and thought about what I wanted to write in my blog, since a freind has demanded I update. lol. The only problem? I forgot everything. You see.....I got sidetracked....and not just by manga....So it's not all my fault! lol. Yes it is. So, here's what's happened recently(no particular order):
1. I swallowed a live bug, and it was gross. I freaked out, I was working, and I didn't want to freak out the customers so I went to the bathroom and choked it up. You know my first thought? "Awww.....Now I don't wanna kiss bf, because I just ate a bug....It's be gross if he knew..." Seriously...I think there's something wrong with me. Shouldn't it have been "I coulda DIED!!!!"?
2. My fried my compie. With hot tea. Last night. (my reason for not blogging) But I went to the compie-department today, they stole it and gave me this substitute that isn't made for my tastes, and said I should have it back before 2 weeks pass by.
3. My paper turned out AWESOME in comparison to the guy whose paper I proofread for him. His was pure T AWFUL to me. But I didn't think I should tell him that.....so I didn't. I just wrote aaaallllll oveeeeeeeeer his paper with corrections, suggestions and such. *evil snicker* I even condensed it so that it wasn't too much to worry about.
4. bf surprised me with something new. He said he'd been saving it for some weekend. And that it wasn't all he'd planned. I was like O.O. I'm quite satisfied with what he DID do. ^_^ I was somewhat evil though and didn't do anything. I'm plotting for Valentines right now, so I'm trying to reserve my thoughts.
5. I keep getting my ideas and thoughts that I support vetoed. It's no fair.....well, actually, it's totally fair, which isn't fair to me. Because I didn't win, and I got an ear full of R's high screechy voice talking about things that had nothing to do with the meeting like LOL cats. WTFISTHAT?!?!?!?!?! It drove me crazy, so I changed my seat. I think CA thought I was coming on to him. Oh well. I didn't touch him at all, so I hope he gets over that idea soon.
6. Bf managed to mark me.....first time ever.....and not just once....At least it's not purple, is all I have to say.....well, also, I WILL GET REVENGE!!!!! It's so high up too, it's totally visible!!! >.< You suckkkkkkkk!!!!
7. I have too much stuff in my fridge. Period.
8. My feet are bruised from the hard work I've been doing. I had no idea the morning shift could be so hectic. But I got spring rolls (which I think I'm addicted to) so it was kewl. And I only had to take off 5 minutes.
9. I've been eating cookies left and right today.....they're yummy.
10. I MISS MY COMPIEEEEEEEE! I love you baby~! I'll keep your spot warm until you're safely in my arms/room again love! *cry cry cry*
11. I'm nearly dead tired, so I'll just say that it SUCKS when you go to class, and they review/teach things you learned last year. And it's worse when they get their facts WRONG. Grrrr.

Quote of the Day: "My waist just go 'in' and then my hips just bust 'out'....."

Procastination sucks

So, I've been trying very hard to write my paper. I somewhat blew off my bf for it. But I can't write it. It's so distasteful, and I don't feel like it's worth it. Who cares about a picture that isn't even the first one of the series. I mean really, how did she pick these prompts?
On a more amusing note, my bf's mom has bothered him about his apparel so much that he mentioned to me he felt he should go to his award ceremony nude. I laughed. And mentioned that I would neither disown him or condone him. lol. Basically, "I won't be like, mmmm, ohhh yeahhhhh baby, that's my man in the buff" and I wouldn't be like "Who's that? I have no idea. Waving? At me? I'm sure it's someone behind me." lol.
My job is nice. I got some tough training Saturday morning. Then talked with my mom, which actually cheered me up, and made me feel like I could do it, even though she was saying she didn't see me as a waitress type. She said that she'd been the best. So for some reason, I thought along the lines of "My mom's blood runs through me, I'm sure that I can be as good as her." Then I stayed calm for the evening shift, and forgot to sign my hours when I left. I feel stupid, and I hope they still count the time I worked. Otherwise, that's five hours down the drain. Oh well. Apparently I get paid around Tuesday, and mom's too lazy to take two hours to drive up to give me some jeans I asked for, but she'll pay to have them shipped to me. She still hasn't sent my box to Japan like I asked, and it's been TWO WEEKS!!!! I'm getting pissed at that. I have alot of work I should be getting done, but I blow it off in such a way that I can only shake my head at myself.
My best friend has been engaged for six months and never told me.... I was so shocked. I mean, I always expected them to get married someday, I just thought I'd be told when he proposed to her. Either way I'm happy for them both, but I hope I at least get INVITED to the WEDDING!! >.< I was sad that my bf knew before I did. Anyways, I feel like I can conquer that paper now, or at least get a shower.

Quote of the Day: "That tongue could be put to better use." "That's what she said." "Yes, yes I did."

It's off to work I go

Today was fun.....I overslept.....so I called bf (who i eat brekkie with), told him i'd be late, and got there two minutes late. Bf then calls me, and tells me HE's going to be late. So, he was like 15 minutes late. ( A litle less, actually) He fell and hurt himself. It made me sad. I was really worried about him, and considering skipping class to make sure he took care of his 'wound' but it wasn't very serious at all, so I didn't. Went to class, ......I dont remember it anymore.....and then went out for bubble tea~! with some classmates. I called and asked bf if he'd like to go, but he didnt want to, so after bubble tea I went out with C for groceries and we had a hell of a time finding a S. In fact, we never found a good S. I decided to substitute something else for it so I wouldn't have nothing. Then C and I came back to my room, where he helped me bring my things up, and actually, we got all those heavy bags in one go. I was surprised and inpressed with C's strength. (He bent over and set them on the ground every time we stopped) Then, he invited me back to his place. But I had work in two hours, so I declined and he went on his merry way. I nibbled on this and that until time for work, and set off~! I got there about five minutes early. Then I worked for five hours. Okay, update. I caused my bf to hurt himself, because nothing but me could motivate him to run that fast. I also feel abusive, because he totally just flinched when I moved my arm to see him better. Then was like "Dont strike me!" .....totally feel abusive.....may as well be it, right? *evil snicker* Anyways, I spilled beer on the floor and nearly broke a cup during work, but that's it. I know one group left a 12 dollar tip. I was like OoO ooh. Wish I could get tips. But it doesn't seem to work like that. Now I have a headache, and I'm sleepy as hell. I have to report in to my job at 11 30 tomorrow morning, and then again at 5 30. Yay, I'm making money~!

Quote of the Day: "I attacked her, she attacked me. We played it fast and rough. Just the way we like it. She was yelling and laughing, telling me to stop, but I just kept going at it, ya know? I couldn't help it. She was asking for it, so who am I to deny her?" -bf's blog

Today is a gooooood day

Today is good. Recap of good events:

-Ate breakfast with bf
-Didn't have Spanish
-Did well in Japanese, and got one on one time with Jap teach
-Played Badminton for a long time with bf and class, and did pretty well, even though my serves cost me alot of points
-Ate lunch with bf
-SNOWBALL fight with bf
-Rode the bus and was well-balanced
-SNOWBALL SHOWDOWN with bf
-Was made very happy by bf
-Got to nap for a few hours
-Was treated to dinner by bf
-Got a job by walking in to a shop and asking about it (thanks to bf)
-Was treated to dessert by bf
-Was made very very very happy and sensitive by bf
-Talked to mommy and sissie and was told they were proud of me :)


That's all for now, but I'll prolly have more later
YAYS

Quote of the Day: "I sound like a little girl!" - (to bf)- "Do I sound like that in bed?"

Dogs were barking at the new moon

So, today was.....not as productive as I'd hoped. I've become depressingly un-self-reliant. I can't even depend on myself to get the things I need done done by myself. So, I feel I need to write a list of things to do.

-Cover letter for internship
-Application for SCA
-FAFSA application !!!!
-Draft for Murakami paper
-Study for Jap test, and start hw for the new chapter
-Listen to the Spanish CDs, as well as study for the Spanish test
-Play in the snow a little more
-Visit the grocery store
-Do the Quia assignments for Spanish
-Reply to Teacher's blog
-Read 21-39(JR) and 6-38(JE) for Jap Religion
-Cut my nails
-Find a way to get my new jeans
-Buy new sneakers
-When I don't have badminton, wear BOOTS
-Do laundry*****
-Borrow mop and clean my floors (after snow melts)
-Give Z his present
-Buy b-day gift for bf
-Call S
-talk with CL


I prolly have more, but right now I don't really care. I'll get started on this list for now. Phew.

Quote of the Day: "....I feel like I should press the 'That was easy.' button..." *sweatdrop*

It's snowing! It's snowing heavily!

I'm happy it's snowing. So, today I slept on K and B's shoulders for the two hour trip back to college, and then came home (walked with my luggage the whole way-oddly, it wasn't all that hard) and read a book til I got rather tired. It's an incredibly cute book, I want bf to read it. Then I napped until bf called me....twice.....and a freind called to eat....and I sorta was tired enough to blow them both off long enough to nap for an extra hour. Then the three of us ate together, went back to C's room, where I showed them a dump email website and then we all watched TV together til it got a little late, and bf walked me home. When we got back, I was cold, and he was cold, and we were more than happy to warm ourselves up. He's getting rather good at things.....it gives me THOSE chills when i think of the things we do or have done. Embarrassing when you're not with him, and in public. With freinds. While eating. In class. While working on a thesis. To name a few possible occasions. I have to get up early tomorrow to do the homework for my classes. I didn't think about them over the weekend. Though I tried to do some hw, it just didn't really work out. Whelp, time to pass out in my silk kimono. yays.

Quote of the Day: C-"Sorry, you know I have a short attention span. And that girl was hot."

Therapeutic Reading

I broke my own promise to myself. The one to not read manga. Booooo. I suck. I also got a lot of work done today, but not physical homework. Which, once again, sucks. I also never changed out of my night -clothes, so I feel like I should wear different clothes to sleep in tonight. I prolly will. It seems to stay cold no matter what you do, so I'll do my best to get dressed tomorrow so I don't have this problem. I miss my phone....It's not working......I can't listen to anyone's voice. I'm dizzy and tired....
So, I have this issue. I have found that, since I am overweight, I feel like I'm fulfilling the stereotype when I go looking for a snack. Like, as an overweight person, I feel as though people will see me snacking and say, "Oh, yeah, she's totally fat and it makes total sense with how much she eats." I know that on these retreats I'm gaining weight. I keep eating! >.< I really shouldn't. We're not even doing anything physical, I haven't stepped outside this house since yesterday afternoon. I am totally not doing anything good for my body like this. I don't like it. I feel like I need to go outside and feel the nature. It's so pretty. And I can't enjoy it because it's so cold! Argh. I'm taking a shower.

Quote of the Day: "Just stick it in the back."-*snurff*-"That's what she said."

No signal

So, here I am at Retreat. I've been all over the place looking for a signal, and come up with nothing. I wanted to hear my bf's voice. But pending that, I wanted to talk via AIM. But pending that.....I'm out of luck. Yes, out of luck. I have to be up at 8:00 am to make breakfast for everyone else. I don't really mind, but I wish I could sleep in. I have done these things today:
-Ate with bf (haaaaaaaappy)
-Was moved to the front in Spanish (*cries*)
-Had to go through apologizing to a guy I just met for standing him up in Japanese (.......)
-Grabbed scones and cookies for lunch at the coffee shop (yummm=>If I were hungry...)
-Stood around waiting to leave for a while....(borrrring)
-Traveled to G Lake (Slept on K's shoulder for a while....*sigh*)
-Snagged the huge couch in the basement(it's cold, but it'll be quieter and less annoying than four other people in the same room)
-Played Ping-Pong with some more experienced players
-Read some fanfiction(I needed to chill)
-Ate salad and pizza (Odd combo, but satisfactory)
-Participated in an Ice Breaker in which we had to sing in front of everyone (ours was by far the least prepared...it fell apart, and we went last)
-Came down, did spanish hw, and played Mafia
-Played Apples to Apples and NEARLY WON with words like Painful and hateful
-Played spades with some freinds.
-I'm planning to take a shower, and then go to bed soon, but for now I'm chilling with some nice peeps that I can count as freinds.

>.< I want my headache to disappear, but it doesn't seem like it's happening.

I'll prolly try to figure out how to keep warm during the night. Glad I brought warm nightclothes.

Quote of the Day: "You are what you are, and you'll be what you'll be. For those that mind don't matter, and those that matter don't mind."- Dr. Suess

For the Ladies out there

From a good writer's profile:

ONE FOR THE GIRLS!

Man: Where have you been all my life?
Woman: Hiding from you.

Man: Haven't I seen you someplace before?
Woman: Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore.

Man: Is this seat empty?
Woman: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

Man: Your place or mine?
Woman: Both. You go to yours, and I'll go to mine.

Man: So, what do you do for a living?
Woman: I'm a female impersonator.

Man: Hey baby, what's your sign?
Woman: Do not enter.

Man: How do you like your eggs in the morning?
Woman: Unfertilized.

Man: Your body is like a temple.
Woman: Sorry, there are no services today.

Man: I would go to the end of the world for you.
Woman: But would you stay there?

Man : If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
Woman: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aKn2cen8c2w

Lord Anubis: Shall I tell you a story?
Me: Sure.

~Story starts~
....every few sentences, I ask a question.....
....Lord Anubis answers each one to the best of his abilities....
.....
....."These people are mean"....

Lord Anubis: I give up
Me: .........
Lord Anubis: Don't you ........ at me
Me:hahahahaha
Why did you give up?
Lord Anubis: You're a terrible person to tell a story to
You ask all the most random questions, and you can't suspend disbelief for even a second.

Me: Laughs for a good three minutes, out loud, and nearly uncontrollably

Yes, my dears, I do indeed ask too much.

Good versus Bad

Good:
1. He's getting more confident
2. He smiles more => DOUBLE YAY- I love his smile
3. He's more relaxed => YAY
4. He's soo sweet
5. He's taking PE-He'll start getting in better shape; forming strong muscles and such
6. He's very intelligent
7. He's attentive
Bad:
1. All the good things are things that others will notice.
2. I'm not sure I'll measure up for long.

Heh. I'm gonna have to work hard to hold on to him.

Oof

I don't know for sure, but I have a strong suspicion that when I get my period, I develop an ache in my left hip. On the other hand, it could be due to my 'activities'. All I know is, I'm aching, and I forgot my phone charger at home. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I guess all I can do is hope someone I know has the same phone and can lend me their charger for an hour. That's all it takes to last my phone a week. But how do i get one.....ergh.
Next point of conflict: My English teacher is shaping up to be a hard and difficult adversary. I don't know what to expect from her except a lot of papers. I'm late turning in two assignments, and I haven't even been to class yet!
On the happy side, my social life is nice.

Quote of the Day: "You're driving like THIS and you call ME an asshole?!"-Eagle Eye or "Come on out. I won't corrupt you....much."-Sinfest

*sigh*

I'm up early for groceries and mailing boxes, but I think I walked in on my Mom's 'happy time'. O_O->X_x

Quote of the Day: "Why is it, whenever I think of my future, you're right beside me?"

Been awhile, so here's some things that have been on my mind:

No one makes comments on my stuff anymore....But, it DOES make it feel more like a journal, I suppose. Hn.
1.Mom and I had a showdown about me making tea. I told her to hit me if she wanted to, but the tea would not be made by me. Four inches from her face. And I won.
2.Christy is so pregnant, I'm scared. I think they scheduled the C-section too late. I just really hope she doesn't go into labor. Though, I have two reasons. I wanna win the bet that I said he would be 10'2 lbs. so I can nickname him. And under no circumstance, is she supposed to go into labor. (I don't remember why)
3.Maya doesn't like human kisses. Which reminds me: Dogs 'lick' to give kisses. How do cats 'kiss' ? Is it their entwined tails? Licking? Which also reminds me:
Okay, this is a little gross, but at the same time, it redeems itself. Maya was giving and recieving loving from me, on my bed, and her wet butt brushed against the back of my neck, near where my shoulder meets it. It was gross, I could smell that she had recently used the restroom. (I also have an unusually strong sense of smell) Then she turned around, rubbed on me a bit more, and then started sniffing that area. Yeah, I hadn't freaked out. I had a book in my hands, what can I say? Then she promptly cleaned it up(tongue of course). I was touched and impressed that she would realize that I didn't like that, while also grossed out in a slight manner, considering what she cleaned. But then I thought about it, and realized cats clean their entire bodies themselves, using their tongues, so I was once again flattered. And slightly cautious. lol. You see, my thought went along the lines of: 1)Maya often licks me clean whenever I'm dirty on parts that she can reach. 2)Occasionally she has cleaned my hand, had me rub her with that part, cleaned it again, and repeated. Basically having me give her a 'bath' of sorts. 3)She often cleans herself and sleeps around me. Which means she's utterly relaxed around me. 4)She sometimes puts me in mind of a person marking their loved one, or sorta like, claiming me for her own? Or, treating me like an extension of herself? That's sorta similar to the way I see her. Sorry sweetie, but I don't have it in me to be anything but pleased by this idea. lol. Sadly, I may miss Maya more than the rest of my family when I go back to college.
4.Augh, I have to go back to college, and I'm not at all sure I have enough money for the books I may not have known I needed. I need a job, and desperately. I also had to drop my swimming lessons. I looked at them again and realized they had a prereq. that I didn't have. Boo.....
5.I'd comment on bf, but I commented on his blog, and feel too exposed already. Face-to-face contact is much better for these things.

Quote of the Day: "Your hair's so long and pretty. I like the way it feels too."*insert cutely admiringly upturned face* - "Um, thanks..? I'm not really sure it's a compliment, after all, I was born with my hair, just like you were with yours. So it's sorta like....Complimenting something I didn't choose.....?"